tonight's events are damn interesting. i dont know where to start.

i know i'm in the wrong, but yet again, why am i throwing such tantrums? i should'nt even let those words outta my mouth no matter how pissed i am. she's afterall my mom right? she has the right to scold me.

i feel damn bad, i broke her heart. i'm just an useless piece of shit.

i believe no one expected me to stay out so late. kinda got my aunt involved. i made everybody worry about me. & the funny thing is, i dont even know if my dad knew i went out. or that, both mom & i went out.

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i'm kinda giddy now. had a bottle of nite orange, no barcadi breezer lime :( SUCKS PLEASE. & lizhen passed off as a 18 year old kid, when she's so much younger then us! HOW CAN LAR!

but nevermind, i feel young :)

had maggi goreng for dinner. :( my bad, i didn't wake up for dinner despite them calling me up. i didnt even know there were people calling me up la!

walked all the way to west coast park, it's not really far. played like mad fools screaming my lungs out on the flying fox thing. yena's a happy girl :) super tired & warm. lied down on the dunno-what-thing. & its damn painful.. but if i can feel pain, means i'm still alive. :) i just stared at the empty space above me. wasn't even in the right mind to think sensibly.

started t feel my face flush when we went to macs. the alcohol took abit long t get my flushed up & dizzy. started to feel damn warm lar :( drank some water & yea.. i'm cool. but crap never stops coming outta my mouth.

we decided t spin arnd orchard. hahaha, the only thing we see at orchard?! cabs, cabs & MORE CABS. so now we know, when's a good time t take CABS. :) of course, not forgetting the 50% midnight charge. :D

i dont know why i am so happy even tho tomorrow's gonna be a disaster.

but whatever, i came back first. aunt was still msging me at 330am. i feel bad bad bad. & i hope granny doesn't know about this :( else she's gonna be damn disappointed.

i've decided, to apologize & pack my stuffs tomorrow.

that's the least i can do, no?

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another thing i wanna rant about.

i dont care about anything that's happening in YOUR life. i really dont give a damn. one moment, you can say that you broke up with your girlfriend, the other moment? you tell me you broke up AGAIN. & actually.. you went back to ur girlfriend after telling me all those shit that you hate her & stuff.

i'm not fun to play with. & i know nothing good will come out from you. you're just one childish fellow that loves t play with feelings & lying through your teeth.

i think i'm rather smart now that i decided t go back with kervin. nice guys have their bad sides too. you need to get a life & go find yourself a GIRL that will listen to your wimps & wants - not forgetting you whines about your goddamn NS life.

i dont see why people can go serve the country WILLINGLY for only 2 freaking years of your life. if you live to the age of 60, it's only 1/30 of your life. isit that TOUGH? why do you have to grumble so much, like HELL I CAN HELP YOU or even SAVE YOU FROM SERVING?!

& i dont see why you've got the cheek to even call me now & ask me where am i, or what i'm doing. i really dont see a need to report to you. i'm not indebted to you. whatever that happened before, i treat it as nothing has ever happened. because i'm so disgusted by your actions & lies that really, i wont ever give a flying fuck about you anymore.

ng sheng yuan, you can go jump down the god damn building, i bet no one will give a damn at all.

and another thing? i didnt leave you hanging AT ALL.

esther is right, fucking NS guys are all desperate guys. it's proven - thats the majority. :) ricky is not. LOL!

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so i've said my piece :) flared up & now, shall forgive & forget. i think i'm blind. :)

thanks nana & lizhen for th company & erh, usual rantings & crap.
thanks alvin, for th ride.

good morning world :)

xoxo