it's a long long day.. it feels like i went to school, but the fact is i didnt la! :D & i'm so afraid warning letters will start flying in like the letters flying into harry potter's hse.. hahaha!

i forgot t mention, the wanton mee at yena's house downstairs is good! no fat charsiew meat :) nicenice wanton. not bad la! :)) good breakfast. & yena paid for everything.. NONONO. cannot hor. altho we're husband & wife. WAHAHAHAH.

went to IMM with ken, and it changed quite abit, a few more shops i guess :) & despite it being so big.. we walked around quite a number of times.. walk until i'm so tired, decided to just sit by the playground & talk. hahaha! dumbdumb! :)

went over t JE, & kenna bombarded by unitians.. erh, i really dont know you all. am i THAT famous? no.. i dont think so. in fact i'm rather low profiled leh.

had kfc for.. teabreak. haha! neither lunch nor dinner.. now i'm starving. but i refuse to eat. (: shall save my stomach for tmr's breakfast. so fat ah so fat..

wanted t catch prestige, but went back t ken's place t get sweater & it started drizzling. ended up surfing SCV channels till jackson called. went back to imm AGAIN to see him have his dinner. super funny pls! talked about alot of things & as usual. laugh alot.

then, home sweet home :) pretty sweeeeeeeet la. :)))

rachel is happy! :)

i wanna go iceskating.. yena, lizhen? :))

time t go lie down & sleep! :)) i've got school tomorrow.. oh man, skipping too much school is bad bad bad! :( & stupid ken doesn't have sch tmr. AHHH! unfair.


xoxo

swwwwwwwweeeeeeeeet dreams. :)

[ edit ]

i realise it's a rather busy week cause it's CA week? there's BIS assignment due tomorrow - part of CA & i dont even know a shit about it. i dont get the question at all la!

there's OOP CA on thurs, nidda print out tutorials/notes cause it's an open book test, which is bad.. cause i have to re arrange alot of things..

there's NF CA on friday.. it's about cable fabrication whatever the hell is that?! really got no idea man..

i think i play too much already.. :( nidda start cramming my brain with all this stupid stuffs again. i should really stay home more often. :(

i
have
got
no
good
time
management
skills :)

THIS SUCKS LAAAAAAAAA.. i shld stop whining & start doing smthng.

but i want to sleep now.

i should be happy if i even see a 2.0 GPA this sem.

[/edit]

i'm lying on yena's floor now! so nice t lie, but its so painful lar!! hahaha. :D

we're self proclaimed husband & wife. AHAHA.

we eat breakfast together.
buy kotex together.
walk to the ATM together.

HAHAHA.

& yena's so freaking dumb! we walked all the way to the ATM machine. & she realised that she didnt bring along her ATM card.. wtf pls! so lame. laugh and laugh like mad..

lie against her bed still got pillow. HAHAHAHA..

great service pls. HAHAHAHA.


YAY, HUSBAND & WIFE. hahahah

yena, when u wanna ROM? when u wanna hold banquet?! HAHAHA

yena's mom super funny.. always see my pictures. first time see me in real person. laugh like mad pls! hahahaha.

i know yena's PIN NUMBER! :D she ask me not to anyhow tell people.. my first reaction..

UR BANK GOT MONEY MEH?! HAHAHAHAHA.

omg, damn funny lar! yena's super funny! :P

love her t bits. ROM, BANQUET. hahahahaha..

im mad :P

xoxo

we skip school AGAIN..

yena & i rock big time pls! ahhahaha..

im going to meet her for breakfast :D

should i cab down?

becoming a super lazy bum pls. HAHAHA.

xoxo

[edit]

money is always a sensitive topic. it sucks to talk about money. that's why i seldom talk about money.

i'm not rich, i'm average. i live on the amount of money mom & dad give me.. if there's extra, good.. if not, i wont open my mouth to ask for more. i'll survive on my own. i work, i have extra, good for me & maybe, give some to dad and mom.

the amount of money i lent out, i wont ask it back from people. the things people borrow from me, i'll never ask it back.

i leave it to their own intergrity & conscience to return money or any other stuffs.

**

i dont mind being poor. really :)

i am a girl who doesn't need all those materials. i'm one who look for comfort. i rather have home cooked dinner with the family at home then going out everyday to eat those unhealthy food. :( i really miss mom & dad's cooking.

now, i am still wondering will we have reunion dinner lsat year like we used to? grandma's not around alr :( might not even have.. talking about grandma.. oh well, nevermind :))

holidays, i'm waiting for siblings holidays to come, den maybe we'll have nice nice food :)

oh well.

conclusion, money's not everything to me :) i guess my good friends all noe that. hor yena? :D

[/edit]


today's dinner topic : physics & famous people..

super funny pls. laughin all the way la!

who's robinson crusoe?
i so confidently.. answered THE ONE WHO DISCOVERED THAT EARTH IS ROUND.

okay fine, they laugh like mad..
& i kept on answering stupid answers. the one who discovered america.

so nevermind la! we started talking physics. uhhuh.. einstein, edison, newton. blablabla..

& dad asked about the nearest way to get from two points duh.. a straight line.

& rayna couldn't really get what we were talking abt. we were just ranting on and on about science and all that crap..

den dad asked.

if a really loud object was coming towards you. will you hear it first, or see it first?

duh, based on the lightning theory, light travels faster then sound. so we'll see it first right? then ryan said smthng about.. if there's a HUGE truck coming towards you, will you see it first or hear it first. so i said, SEE IT FIRST LA.. okay - my bad.. my mistake. haha! then ryan started all this bullshit about the truck going towards his BACK so he'll hear it first. BADABADAWALALA! full of bullshit :X

so i tried to justify myself laa.. so in the end i told ryan "you lose alr dun wanna admit! den wanna find fault with me"

then dad said ryan's blind - so he hears the truck first., rachel's deaf - so she sees the truck first. & rayna's dumb, mute & blind. all stunt.. dumb & mute not th same meh?! ahhaha.. paiseh la daddy..

then i asked. what do you call a person who cant smell anything?

.
.
.
.

RACHEL.

everybody laugh.. at me. i guess i'm the butt of joke at home?! always i kenna one!

thank God i didnt take physics.. all the whole load of shit crap dad spilled out of his mouth. kept my jaw open.. dad IS dad.

& he said, it's no wonder i got a C last sem :( cause i spill all the bullshit out. HAHAHA..

whatever, i love this kinda dinner sessions :)) love my family. hate the naggings.


mwaaaaaaa. :)

xoxo

hehehehehehe. i feel good!

DAMN GOOD :))

really, when boredom takes over! the best thing to do is look for the good ol thing that's forever there! :))

my bestest companion, even better than a dog! :) weak comparison, i know! but then again, really what.. to me lar!

so i played a few songs based on memory.. & hey, i'm still good! hahahaha. not as good as maksim, or even close.. but still, able to maintain my last checked grade 4 standard. hahaha, really, i should be taking my grade 6 in..4 months! but forget it man. i give up! :)

i'm feeling so sleepy :( wanted to nap, but too late alrr. mu tou ren entertained me! :D

i'm gonna sleep damn early later. IS tomorrow :( spell B O R I N G. :( consolation? it ends at 12. :) i wish every tuesday was odd week, then i'll end at 12 every tuesday!

i'm still thinking whether or not to bring my laptop tomorrow, don't really feel like bringing. might not even use it for that 2 hours. i wanna go down t bugis t get denims.

they say i look funny in jeans :( WHY! HOW CAN! i always wear jeans. i'm so guai :)

i wish i can be as rich as paris hilton. i dont mind inheriting the WHOLE hilton line of hotels, really :) i'll be freaking richhhhh, i'll drive a lambo & spend like anything.. prada, lv, gucci. everything's CHEAP. hahaha

snapsnap, rachel's dreaming :D

hmmmm.. where shall i go tomorrow? i'm getting super bored at home. sighhhh..

i
hate
school.

i
love
myself.

i
am
happy.

mu
tou
ren.

oh whatever, i shall stop ranting & ranting.. and ranting! :)

ellen is a good show, it's dry humour, but still humour. laughing & laughing nonstop pls. damn funny. & mu tou ren, i'm sneezing nonstop! ahhahaa.


xoxoxoxoxo.

had our fulfilling lunch over at canteen two :)) chicken cutlet :) i only like th skin larr, the meat's soft.. haha!

alvin treated us to drinks & that kukunehneh! blur until forget to buy lizhen's drink. had this super bewildered look on all our faces. & we thot lizhen don't wanna drink. hahaha, but actually that kukunehneh forgot to buy. HOR KUKUNEHNEH! :D

remember, remember
the 5th of november.

super love this phrase pls! :) too engross with vendetta. super nice show, terrorist & polictics. :)

so unfair pls! yena's got voodoo doll & lizhen's got banana! me? nothing :(( & they keep on suaning me pls.

stupid yena, walked out of the canteen with slippers on the wrong side.. how dumb can anyone get?! can wear slippers until wear wrong side. wtf! so dumb pls..

& lizhen did something even more dumb.. & she damn happy now.. flocked by guys around her. -shakes head! she really blur untill.. i got nothing to say :)

**

school's really boring.. another 3 more hours. :( OH MAN.. i really wish i could plop down onto a bed & sleeeep..

& never wake up..

oh well. pictures! :D







it's all about me & yena.. haha :) freaking love her lar! butt of our jokes :D


MY CUTE LIL BABY NIECE :( sighhhh.. she's so freaking cute pls. *pinches her cheeks. & she smiles & laughs at everything & anyone. ahhhh! she's 6 hours away from me.. wish i could see her laa, but no, i cant go over t sydney :(

NEXT YEAR, i shall go over :) shall start saving.. but my hp bill takes away all my savings. hahaha :P but i dont mind. (:

i swear i love OOP lessons :) it always ends DAMN EARLY! & i'm yawning away..

im done with my V for Vendetta, i want somemore movies! :( have yet t get john tucker, stay alive & covenant form yena..

i wanna catch the prestige & guardian! badabadawalala! :D

xoxo

good morning world :)

i've pretty much cooled down from ytd's big events. i shan't stoop down to their low levels.

fazil & yena, thanks for being such avid readers, i know you love my blog so much that you've to read while i'm typing..

thanks for making me feel proud :) i love you fazil. hahahaaaa..

ohwell.. :)

yena's super suay pls. no musical fountain last night. cause it was raining.. hahahaha, & i didnt wanna get drenched. HAHA :D

i felt so dumb. meters away, but yet i still msg instead of talking.. HAHA. :D

so freaking hungry lar, i want burger king :( didn't even finish my meal last night. hahaha.

so today, three happy girls :)

lizhen's super happy after shopping.
yena's super happy after DOUBLE dinners with lesbo lover ME & after that.. weeee taxi! hahahaha :D

me? just happy :)

**

there are somethings which i really dont know how to reply.. i guess things really happened a tad too fast, i prefer things the way it is now. :) hope it's alright?

you know, i know.. we all know :)

**

i happen t have V for Vendetta in my lappie :) so i'm gonna watch it during lesson! :)

my class's damn nice pls.. even COMT's quiz also can share answer :)

**

i had a darn good sleep last night.. considering the fact that i only had 5 hours of sleep the day before? :) lied down on the bed & i'm gone... hahaha. i'm still aware of whats happening, but just too tired t even lift a finger, or open my eyes.

feels good to sleep this way.. it's really hmm, nice lar! lol. at least i dont have t toss & turn so much. :))



all in all,

rachel's a happy girl :)

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2...
3....

MU TOU REN! :D

xoxo

pictures from yesterday will be up later :) wanna edit some pics. <3

fuckin sick in the head bloody muthafuckers.

its a bad day. although part of it was nice & everything. but the later half screwed the whole damn day up.

two words, FUCKED UP.

which bloody dumb ass will hail a cab RIGHT in front of you knowing that you're waiting for a damn cab. one is alright, FOUR MUTHA FUCKING DUMB ASSES. deserved t be fucked.

& so be it, not like i aint pissed enough.

bloody taxi driver had to lecture me. HELLO, i am PAYING you & giving you the DAMN INCOME t even continue driving. what makes you think that you can lecture me?

& even if you wanna earn more, you DONT HAVE to travel at 60km/h for the whole fucking journey.

i hail your cab, you stop. so you jolly well bring me to where i want to go. & not start to lecture me & what nots.

in conclusion, even comfort cabs SUCK. i want my own transport pls.


ahhhhh whatever shit crap.

i am fuckin' pissed.

XOXO.

ps. on a lighter note :) thanks mu tou ren for sending me back. so troublesome hor? :) the only thing that brightens up my damn bad day.
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3

MU TOU REN! ((:

i sometimes wonder, was it a mistake to leave shalom?

maybe if i had not left, i would still be the good girl staying at home all day right? listening to everything mom's saying..

but i guess, leaving shalom has somehow changed my life quite drastically now.

it's all the late nights out & hanging too much with the mates. what would life be, without all this?

but then again, i'm glad that even tho many things has happened thruout this year, the people i've brought along with me.. and then me being me, left.. & for whatever reasons that they're still staying on at shalom, i thank God that they had not left - like me.

im pretty ashamed of myself. whatever has become of me?

good for nothing, sleeping in on sundays, refusing to go to church.. & the bible? it's missing already.. hiding admist my stacks of rubbish..

i failed :)

but whatever, it's part & parcel of life, a route to eternity ? sad enough, i've stopped believing in that. anyhow.. shall see how things go. maybe i'll go back? maybe i'll not..

i'm still thinking whether or not to jio yena out for dinner.. HAHA, you see.. i didnt see her ytd.. & im missing her.. you know you know.. AHHAHAHA.

jackson from skybar says we're lesbos! HAHAHAHA.

whatever.. i'm off to iron my clothes! :)) i want denims! i realise i'm pretty dumb. for a moment, i've got so many cargo pants.. then jeans, the 3/4s. den now denims. -shakes head. hahaha

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3..

MU TOU REN! :D

xoxo <3

after refreshing for 93287409238740 times & republishing my blog for 987324982734 times.

FINALLY.....

i can read my entries & view my skin edits.

stupid blogger!

slept at 6 woke up at 1100 :) POWERR! i dont mind :) late nights in exchange for confessions! hahaha :) made me a happy girl at least.

so full of energy now :) gotta iron my clothes :( damn alot of jeans t iron.

my chapped lips are better! :D weee! :) constant need t apply lipgloss. so ma fan :( but, oh well. get used t it.

MY DESKTOP NEEDS A MOUSE. hahahaha, my mouse given away alr. dad went t buy some win xp software for my desktop :D so i hope it revives itself. else i'll curse & swear!

chantel kreviazuk - leaving on a jet plane
"
All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye

But the dawn is breakin', it's early morn
The taxi's waitin', he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

I'm ...

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I'll tell you now, they don't mean a thing

Every place I go, I think of you
Every song I sing, I sing for you
When I come back I'll wear your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time, oh, let me kiss you
And close your eyes and I'll be on my way

Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times that I won't have to say ...

Oh, kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

And I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go
"

gonna be a laze home day again :) oh well. dread school tomorrow, but do i have a choice? :D

pictures la! :D


sentosa love! :)))



need t remind you of me :)

many love,
xoxo

badabadawalala..

testing something, stupid blogger's scrwing up. blaaaaaaaaa..

AHHH FUCKING STUPID ME.

i thot i sent the message

but it's sitting inside my draft folder... how dumb please..

& im waiting & waiting....

BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHH..

stop being so dumb lar!! ohmannn :(

stupid joke my mom send me.. she's always full of such stuff, i wonder is she working in the office or receiving & sending emails.. but anyhow..

A man checked into a hotel. There was a computer in his room, so he decided to send an e-mail to his wife.

However, he accidentally typed a wrong e-mail address, and without realizing his error, he sent the e-mail.

Meanwhile....Somewhere in Houston, a widow had just returned from her husband's funeral. The widow decided to check her e-mail, expecting condolence messages from relatives and friends.

After reading the first message, she fainted. The widow's son rushed into the room, found his mother on the floor, and saw the computer screen which read:



To: My Loving Wife

Subject: I've Reached

Date: 24 Nov 2005


I know you're surprised to hear from me. They have computers here, and we are allowed to send e-mails to loved ones.

I've just reached and have been checked in. I see that everything has been prepared for your arrival tomorrow.

Looking forward to seeing you TOMORROW!



Your loving Hubby

**

super dumb pls! :)

today's sucha boring day la :( woke up at 730, & got ready t leave th house. my mom made a big hoo ha cause i refused to wear shoes out. i hate wearing shoes :D i prefer wearing slippers/sandals. & it's not like i cant move about la!

& i've proven myself yet again :D

but lo & behold. God's playing around again la! :( i should have expected something wrong.. but it wasnt the right time yet whattt. how can anyone be more suay then me? :D the stupid monthly cramps attacked.. wtf pls! SPOILED MY ENTIRE DAY'S PLANS! so pissed!

so i ran up & down 10storeys of stairs. TWICE! what the hell please! stupid amazing race. i gave up there after, sat under the shade & slept.. :)) super shiok please! & after that i was.. writhing from my pain..

came back & slept for a good 4 hours. i think sleeping's good! stops me from thinking, i happy you happy. all happyhappy :) see.. that's why i say i wanna sleep & never wake up..

went t amk for dinner. :( dont feel good lar! i should've gone out today! mom wants me t go to church tomorrow. noooooooooooooooooooooo!

but whatever.. shall see how tomorrow :D my eyes are hurting alr la..

i bought another kinda lipgloss.. dont know if it'll work. but ohwell :))

johnson.. i dont really get what you mean? i know i've changed alot. say, over the past 3 years?

but really.. change always takes place no? i think i've become a more friend-ly person.. a person who places much more importance on my friends. things are so different already.. rachel changed alot! :)

ahhhhhhh, today's phone is so quiet :( hahahaha, i'm so not used to it..


whatever, random post :) shall sleep early today. good weekend.. catching u pon my sleep.

xoxo

the dried skin over my lip is so freaking irritating, lipgloss doesn't work either.. i wish so much now that i can just.. use a scissors & cut the skin away. gross i know.

feels good to lie down for an hour, falling in & out of sleep. with the occasional small dreams. :)

that's th best thing i can do.. to keep me occupied. feels kinda weird that i'm back to the routine of waiting for sms-es. hahahaha, hen tong ku pls. not a nice feeling. not a nice sight either. hahaha.

its funny eh. imagine 3 of us. sitting side by side, constantly looking down at the phone admist whatever we're doing. hahaha. & the occasional wee taxi! sound.. or the, vibration of the table. hahaha :)

i just feel like blogging.. i've got no motive in this entry, neither have i got anything good to write about. sighhhhhh..

i wish i could re visit korea :( at the age of 11, i knew nuts. shuqi & i slept in the bus until we didn't get down. hahahaha, mommy didnt even realise that i was still in the bus. super funny! :D then again, from there, i know mom really cares. :)

or.. sliding backwards on my skis. super funny! i was so small & the skis were so freaking heavy.. & i was sliding backwards.. hahahaha. :D & bro skied down the slope so quickly & crashed with another person, his front tooth dropped.. funniest shit ever. :D

so whatever i cant do now.. i'll do it in the future?

im gonna visit korea, australia ( maybe sydney & perth ), japan, states!, UK? :)

HAHAHAHA...


i'm dreaming alr :D


goodnight world.

i suddenly have this feeling.. a feeling that i havent had in a long time. i dont know, isit sadness or jealousy? my heart skipped a beat...

**

dear kervin,

i dont know if you'll read this. tomorrow's the 28th October 2006. it marks the second year which we're supposedly be together.

many things have happened throughout this 2 years. break ups & quarrels were so common. sometimes i wonder, was there even love?

i'm so sorry that i've decided to leave. it's a decision that was tough to make, a decision that has been procrastinated for too long.

i hope things will be better & i'm so sorry for being so cold.. for the past 3 weeks.

and i hope you'll remember something. throughout the 2 years. i never stopped loving you. you may wanna go ahead and think what you always think. that i dont love you. but that's not the truth.

i might say i hate you. i might say i dont wanna see you. i might say things that hurt badly. but, inside me. all i say is i love you.

but now..

its time to let go...

happy 2 years anniversary..

i hope you move on with your life, & i am sure you'll find a better girl who'll love you more then i loved you, a girl who'll take care of you & a girl who'll put a smile on your face everyday.

xoxo

**

[ music : leaving on a jet plane ]

someone keeps on asking whether i'm blogging.. so yea, now im blogging ! hahaha :)

i'm so drained out, my eyes are hurting. but anyway, the day was not really fun & everything.. but then company was good. :) the same people i can always fall back on, their my safety net. :) & i'm so sorry i'm always leaving them two together, making it difficult for them to decide where to go.. waitamin, even with me, we cant decide also right?

two happy girls, got tanner :) me? sitting under the shade with headphones plugged in. pondering, wondering & thinking.. for an hour. haha! with the occasional disturbance from the two siao charbos. other then that, i was living in my own world..

met up with derek & went t koufu to eat lunch. that dumb ass, go koufu & eat wanton mee. what the hell?! hahaha, i had my chicken lamen :) i didn't know what i was feeling la.. haha. just kinda stone, tired maybe? & they kept thinking that something is wrong.. no, nothing is wrong, tiredness maybe :)

& the funny thing is, our phones are always busy at different times. taking turns. super funny! & derek's so irritated cause the two of them were so busy with their phones. i was enjoying my food, being in my own world again.

went up to skybar, wanted to watch the 4dmagix. but so freaking ex pls! :( so we ended up slacking at skybar for an hour or so.. joseph refused to charge us for the drinks. so stubborn huh, got sales dont want! hahaha :D actually.. derek & joseph are of the same rank.. why doesnt joseph keep on calling derek sir?! hahahaha! super funny!

oh well. derek sent us t redhill. actually got free ride home, but yena they all decided t take a train from redhill, so all go tgt lor! derek so nice pls :D hahahaha, altho out of the way. he also say okay. hahaha :D

the other risk, talking on the phone while driving is.. going to the wrong road -.-" LOL! super funny pls! instead of going straight, derek turn left .

it's good, back at home, having dinner with the family. enjoying the occasional laughters & stupid jokes. nobody laughs at my jokes anymore. :(

:)ua>|

hahahaha.. yena teach one :D hahahaha!


oh well.. i think i shall go lie down on my bed & listen to some music. at the same time, pondering, wondering & thinking again..

sometimes i think, i'm so tired cause i think too much :D but whatever! it's good to think, or rather, stone :)))

the class is splitting up. no more usual 12people outings. now it's left with 3 girls or 3 girls + ryan, shawn and occasional kenneth. whatever happen? but anyhow..

i still enjoy the company. :))

xoxo

i dont think today is a good day. i'm half dead - walking zombie. but anyhow.. i'll blog later.

i'm one in my stupid down down down mood again.

i just wish i could sleep & never wake up..

xoxo

read lizhen's blog this morning.. one sentence triggered me. the endless road without a stop sign..

first thought? ljj's endless road. that song brings back alot alot of memories, but whatever. they're all history. & it kinda reminds me how bad it was. & nope, i'm not gonna let it happen again. i gotta be happy in whatever i'm in or do. :)

The truth is tearing up my heart
I can't recognise this place
The endless road without a stop sign
Can't even find a stranger this time

chorus
Why am I still holding back my tears
In this loneliness there's nothing left to fear
Every chord still seems a wonder
How we could be together
Everytime I ask if this would be the last

Why am I still talking to myself
Hoping you will have the keys to my cell
Every song might calm the weather
But it just draws me deeper
How do I get out of this
I think~ I never will

A crystal forming in the eye
Maybe this would be the last
The winding path down my face
Till I begin to taste the bitterness inside

Repeat chorus

Why am I still holding back my tears
In this loneliness there's nothing left to fear
Every chord still seems a wonder
How we could be together
Everytime I ask if this would be the last

Why am I still talking to myself
Hoping you will have the keys to my cell
Every song might calm the weather
But it just draws me deeper
How do I get out of this
I think~ I never will

I never will

yup, rachel's not going back :)

-

alright. im nt going t school again. going into island instead. what the hell right! hahahah, yena & lizhen la! skipped with them. & they wanna tan.. so go with them lor.

when's th best time t tan? :) faster guess. hahaha :D super funny!

laughed like mad early in the morning :) thanks. if this goes on, i think i'll like like a retarded retard. HAHAHA :D


but anyhow. i like it =D


enjoy the rest of your dayyyyy. i'll blog tonight. i foresee alot of stupid stuffs happening.

xoxo

good morning world! :)

:D :)

rachel is happy today. & im tired.

IM FINALLY BACK HOME AFTER 3 DAYS! :)))) which is good :) aunt's back in sg too. which is also good :)

yeap! so tomorrow going to school wont be a hassle. & of course, thankyou darlings for meeting me at clementi :)

skipped BIS & OOP jst nw. smart me :) BIS was nothing! & i was already pissed off enough with the stupid UID lecturer. really blew up. alright la, she thinks she's funny. yes she is.. a wee bit. but sometimes, she goes over the limit. & it becomes irritating in the end.

rushed t finish my UID assignment. haha. gotta do somemore for her lar. but whatever! stared/cursed/argued/screamed over that stupid assignment which i only got 3 marks for. SO NOT WORTH IT. hahahaha but whatever!

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went home & left my stuff. then went back t grandma's hse t take stuff, & home again. i'm looping around the west area! LOL :) so paisehhhhh. but anyhow, thanks huh :D you know who you are.

went t town. i didnt get my movie at cathay! AHHHHHH. so bu shuang. i'm going back, I DONT CAREEE. guardian anyone? :D

watched DOA @ GV. so damn sian, so uncomfortable. but ohwell.. the awkward position i was in kept my awake :)

laughed like mad at the stupid show lar. it's not actually funny. but rather, stupid. the stunts & all that crap are so.. unrealistic. it's really like i'm playing a game. so well, maybe 3 stars?

no good movies arnd already! have yet t catch a really.. appealing show yet. the last really appealing show that i was awake for the whole duration is POTC 2. that's like 2 hours plus la! & i was awake & enjoying everybit of it.

i get tired so easily now. OLD ALR LA! :D even eating a meal makes me tired.

went t kent ridge park. rachel being the suay one.. met police again. HOW DUMB PLS.

went t ayer rajah t eat dinner. hokkien mee again, chicken wings look tempting, but noooo. fattening :)

trotted home after that :)

good day = happy girl = sweet dreams

no connection, but whatever!

alright, it's good to be home. :))) great in fact!

oh yea, i added another jacket t my collection. :( no choice, was freeeezing. so now i've got like.. 4 jackets. which dumb idiot will have 4 jackets?! who who who ? rachel lor.


anyhow. i wanna bath & laze on th bed. old alr :D

xoxo

:)))))

i dont know whats wrong with me lar.

this is th second week of school, i should be settling down & starting to study. but now, all i think of is skipping school, skipping lecture, where to go after school, what to eat.

i'm so.. duhhhh.. out of focus! think im gonna do badly for this sem, unless i start picking up the pieces.

& i'm so lethargic lately.

even if you let me sleep for a day, i dont think i'm able to sleep for a day. HAHAHA :D

super high now pls. :)


maybe why i'm so tired's cause i think too much..

i shall go lie on the bed & watch tv. a luxury i wont have at home. LOL :)


gng out tmr! :D

xoxo.

nobody washes dirty linen out in the open.

but now, i really just want t say it out lar.

i really see no reason why, with a car & so much free time. you can't even come down to see your mom, & better still, u're sending ur wife to work which is in the same block. cant you just spare even 5 mins to go UP the lift, OPEN the door. SIT and talk awhile with you mom?

& considering the fact that you're the oldest son.

i dont even need mom to open her mouth to ask. even tho i'm rather reluctant. but i still willing to stay over for a few days, bare with the inconvenience of going to school to ensure that granny's safe at home & there's someone at home to accompany her.

so tell me why why why! why i can when you cant?!

being filial wise, i think i beat you hands down. blah.

even mom say's i'm filial :D just that i'm STUBBORN.

seriously..11+ very late meh?!

oh well. just came back from dinner with granny. slacked at mccafe just now :) oh well!

i'm lazy to go to school tomorrow. might be skipping OOP. hahaha!

that means i've skipped every module this semester :D

xoxoxoxoxoxo..

yena's the best please. no wonder i love her so much. hahaha.

stupid mistake #1: what for bring a nano without a ear piece?

stupid mistake #2 : ryan voluteered to lend her his earpiece.. & yena asked. got extra anot?! who would bring extra earpiece?!?!

hahahaha, got extra pen, but no extra earpiece. which freak will have four ears?! HAHAHA.

super funny :) see, even i'm so tired also sure laugh & laugh.

oh man.. NF is sleeping lesson. i'm hiding behind the huge desktop. AHAH.

soppy music + air con + droning of lecturer's voice = PERFECT SLEEPING AMBIENCE :D

xoxo

it's a long day today.. & so was yesterday. was really, super duper drained out to even open IE to blog. :) even as i'm typing this rather long entry.. my eyes & mind are threatening to shut down on me.

this week's rather interesting. i'm staying over at grannies. it's like chalet equip with an alarm clock ( my granny wakes me up every morning :D), got a toilet in my own room :D feels damn good to stay there la! :D i dont mind..

& it was freaking cold last night.. brrrr.

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i survived the whole day, until 12+ on 3 freaking hours of sleep :D i'm so powerful. wanted t nap in the afternoon, but was talking on th phone.. & then went out to meet derek for early dinner.

chicken cutlet at bukit timah hawker is damn shiok pls! super super nice :D shall go eat it sometime again this week with the mates. got good things must share ma :) i'm so nice!

derek drove me down to harbour, he refused t send me into island lar! but anyhow.. so pissed with sentosa's organisation. it took me one freaking hour to get from harbourfront to skybar. normally it takes less den half an hour.

& there's nobody there to moniter the queue. & people started queuing any oh how. & when they told people to move, the queue started getting messy, the people from the back comes to the front. what the hell? & the bus frequency is so damn slow.. when the mainland bus is bringing so many people in -.- & the queue gets so freaking long!

& when they were moving the queues, i happen to come inbetween this two couples who are friends. i mean like, if i'm being seperated. naturally i'll go to the back to look for my friend lah! & not talk through the person in between. or even worst, so anxious to get up the bus. when the queue is moving so damn slowly already. that stupid guy still push & push. to make it simpler, it's like trying to fuck me from the back _|_ & he's with his girlfriend lar. i got super pissed. i waited & waited.. i almost turned around and say

stop pushing pls. the damn bus wont run away, neither will sentosa run away.

so pisseeeeeeeed.

& nevermind, at skybar. everything was good. until giri came. spell d i s a s t e r :) yena did closing for one freaking hour! i was super pissed already la. went back t the stall & stupid giri keep on dilly dailying. so freaking pissed at him. everything also wanna slowly do. derek, michelle do so fast, he do so slow. slowpoke! -.-"

and i'm pretty pissed with F&B people anyhow saying things la. like wtf pls? at least get your facts right, instead of just passing nonsensical remarks & causing distress. it's like, the whole dept is made up of all GOSSIPERS. sometimes, things are meant to be heard, kept shut about. not heard, and pass & pass until the whole real actual thing gets distorted. blah, immature thinkings.

END OF SENTOSA RANTING..

alright la, blame it on my insufficient sleep.. maybe that's why i'm so, touchy.

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after that, cabbed down to ken's house with yena. stupid cab driver. wtf pls! drove so slowly. from harbour t westcoast, straight road all the way, 8bucks lar :( shld've gone by AYE. hahaha, but whatever!

went up to his place t watch SCV. hahaha, watched the WDPS show. super funny pls. but that show's old. watched it like ages ago. still remember i would wake up early in the morning to watch dvds :D

but oh well, went down to yena's place to eat chicken wings! :) damn good please! yena, nxt time we go earlier yea! den got more things t eat :)) it's alright, nobody blames you lar! we hao xin help them order, den they littat, bo bian lor :) we eat it ourselves. :D

talked alot of crap.. it's nice being out sitting & talking. slacking.. haha! :D we're all old & tired people. oh well :D

ken sent me back. super cold pls. freeeezing. maybe that's why the whole night was so cold, caught the chill. haha! :)

oh well. chatted abit with yena & lizhen on msn before conking out.. it's really, lie on the bed & rachel's gone.. living inside lalaland. LOL! :D

stupidly long post! & our break's at 1 pls :(( so boring! i think the only alright module this sem is OOP.

i hope i dont do badly lar, 3.0 and above is a must!

& yena's always showing me STUPID PHOTOS of ourselves!


AHHAHAHA..

alright :)

xoxo

i'm pretty much done with my BIS. :)

derek asked me out! so, i'm gonna meet him, den meet yena for prata!

and then back to grandma's hse t spend the night :) i should get used to it eh? then i can pop by grand's if anything happens at home. :D BADABADAWALALA..

im so tired now :( i feel like sleeping. i think i can just fall asleep straight away.. keeping my eyes OPEN is a chore! great chore pls :(

i think i'm sacrificing alot for the social circle lately. it's always yena, lizhen, derek, ken,alvin, jackson. HAHAHAHA.

too much late nights already. i must revert back t my good-girl days :) it's time to take a break man!

it feels damn weird not seeing yena early in the morning..
it feels damn weird not going to school..
it feels weird trying not to laugh at the stupid msges yena sends me when im on the bus.
it feels weird.. :)


and wtf pls, it's raining damn heavily lar! :( i dont wanna carry an umbrella out! besides. i've got a laptop t carry :( NEHNEH!

i've always thought no one would listen to me, i've always thought i'm the one listening to people. & apparently. i'm the kinda that will keep things t myself, be it my own problems or people's problems (of course duh) so, i tend to build up alot of hate & angst inside me. :)

so yup! someone volunteered to listen to all my problemscrap :D dun regret ahhhhhh... :)

xoxo.



rachel is -_-ZzZ away...

it feels damn good. to be sitting on my cushioned chair clad in my tee & FBTs. hanging my legs over the table & typing all this. :)

slept at an unearthly hour of 530 this morning. HAHAHA, the good thing about staying over at granny's. nobody cares what time i sleep! :) had a mere 3 to 4 hour rest & woke up.. in a trance. bathed & everythg. practially stoning..

had brunch @ kah hiang restaurant. damn shiok. ate alot alot alot. see, my family is weird. either we eat TONS or we dont eat. :D red star @ chinatown had tons of people :( the food there will be better tho.

took alot of stupid photos with my sis. :D & my bro loves my mom's phone.. so he kept on using her phone t take pictures.. OF ME! :D being stupidly, stupid.


part of the mission accomplished :D ken, i made you laugh & talk alot hor! powerpuff rachie @ work. HAHAHA! :D

gonna stay over at granny's for another 2 more nights :) going to school will be a hassle! so ma fan pls. but nevermind.. i sacrifice :) got leg, got hand. i'll be able to reach school. the most cab to school for the next two days lor! :)

i'm thinking of giving my line to my bro & then i get another line.. super irritating pls, not enough sms-es t use :D singtel bluff me money :(

mom scolded me for paying my bill so early (WTF?!) hahaha. damn funny, paying bills early is good what, no? rather then i end up with no money den cant pay right.. yes i'm loaded! :D

hahaha. oh well.

i've got to pack my stuff, got to do the stupid AFD thing for tomorrow's presentation. but all i wanna do now.. is SLEEP.

yeap, i'll settle the rest of the stuffs tonight.. over prata maybe? :DDD


xoxo

poor aunt's celebrating her birthday in phil! & also.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARKCHEE :) dont know if you'll read, but anyhow.. mag, pass msg pls :D hahaha!

badabadawalala!!! :D

good morning world :)

1am, i just got home from chilling out at the macs downstairs with ken, jackson, alvin & lenny he left halfway.. yup. :) i smell of ciggs now.

three kids, smoking away. really irritating to see them smoking, but worst? blowing smoke into me. got really damn pissed off just pushed my chair backwards.

i kept on disturbing jackson about drinking. hahahaha. he cant drink for nuts lar! lol. get drunk & show your fist. drunken jackson fist. super funny. hahahaha xD

alright.. not like i can drink. but i wont show drunken rachel fist ma.. :D

i'm still not done with my work. ended up chatting & playing NFS downstairs. my laptop was a total... disaster. lag like hell pls! lol. and its damn irritating.. too much stuffs on my desktop & tons of other MISC stuffs inside my D:/ start up is damn damn slow..

nobody wants t get me an external hard drive.. cant reformat my lappie.

oh well..

i dunno what to blog anymore. :)


good morning world. time t get some sleepp blogders :D


xoxo.

I'm using aunt's comp now. am a lil not used to it cause i haven't typed on a keyboard for the longest time! oh well :)

there's no connection t steal here. am thinking of going down t macs, but alone..? nah.. i see 7-11, i think of my bacardi that i've yet t drink! BOOOO. stupid 7-11 at prata shop dont have bacardi. HAHAHA, i sound like some sick alcoholic. :D hahahaha oh well man! :)

i nidda do stuff. i need my laptop, but THERE'S NO INTERNET CONNECTION.

& sick yena's drinking WITH HER MOM! how great is that? lol. i also want lar! :( but my mom not as hip as her pls.

i think i'm going down to macs. i doubt i'll have time to do COMT quiz tomorrow, so i better TRY to finish it today. maybe i can get some bacardi? :DDD

i feel so damn bad. i was washing my jeans just now - 8 fucking pieces! & granny was standing outside the toilet.. WATCHING MEEE. i think in the end she cannot tahan.. she helped my wringe dry my clothes. HAHAHA. super funny pls! i feel bad lar!


oh well.. i shall go take a dump :D

i'm not gonna see yena tomorrow! HOW CAN LAAAA. :D

xoxo.

hahahaha. away from home tonight ))): going to granny's hse to stay.

her legs are aching, guess its cause of the rain. IM SUCHA A NICE GRAND DAUGHTER (: so i'll go over! & got SCV! weeee! :)

i guess aunt's in phil alr :) hope she's safe over there.

oh man! im so hungry :)) alrighttttt.

xoxo.

i think i caused conflict between ling zair & daddy.

daddy dun wanna pay for my airfare & ling zair thinks that he's so selfish. as usual la! & no one's gonna go over with grandpa.. so ling zair has decided not to talk to dad.

oh man! :( how can right? i've got so much to update ling zair about.. about the argument i had with mom. but i guess she wont stand on my side either. my bad :(

i miss lilian so much lar! i guess she's getting older now.. & lilian's first birthday is coming in 3 days! :D weeee! so fast ):

i wished i had the cash to go over to sydney.

donate to the rachel's fund please! :D den i'll be a happy girl.

i know nuts about the OOP thing that's happening now. living in my own, dreaming my own dreaming. laughing nonstop at the screen & chattin with lizhen & ken. HAHA.

super funny pls.

3 silly girls. laughing at the screen :) man, this IS bliss.

xoxo.

good morning world :)

good start to the day :) hearing yena's sleepy voice is definitely an incentive :D laughed like mad! & her early morning happiness made me laugh like mad also. no wonder someone took so long to reply me! & she refusedddd to tell me anything last night.

yena you suck! :D

BIS really sucks, especially the lecturer. he pronounces bracket as blacket. pronounces dispatch goods as dispat good. super irritating. & we came in at 915, and he said please be punctual. lol. what the hell lar!

my eyes are hurting damn badly :( & lesson's are up till 4 today. WO BU YAO. >:(

i'm amazed at the amount of food i can eat.. & dont eat. sometimes i really eat damn alot, sometimes i eat nothing at all. wahah! weird. :D

& my mom's ridiculous! she msged me this morning "R u going out with someone? if u r, make sure u take it slowly. dont be hurt again"

R I D I C U L O U S !

nobody wants me mommy :(

yena's riding on cloud 9 cause of horseyyy. & lizhen's smiling again. which is goood! :)

me? i've decided to forget that anything even happened. :) the past week's like.. some kinda drama. now, drama's ending :)

oh well..


NFS HERE I COMEEEE :)

xoxo
rachel

i'm just done shitting :) FEELS DAMN GOOD! hahahaha.

alright sounds pretty obscence. but whatever! i just feel good. :)

i think the place where i seek solace now is sentosa. on two occassions that i felt like shit, i went in & looked for derek. hahaha. there are no secrets between us man! :D

he treated me t carls jr @ vivo for dinner! :D we drove the big huge van out. it's damn funny to see him struggling with the steering wheel, but when he drives a car.. woooo :D damn nice t sit please :D

dinner was good! too much for me to finish. & was super suay to see ngshengyuan. DAMN SUAY PLEASE. yeap, i told derek everythg also. think he really deserves t die.

oh whatever :D

went for supper with derek & yena @ prata shop again! :D derek's damn nice please. hahah! he drove us home even tho he stays on the other side of the island. LOL.

i love derek so much. wahhaha! :D hor yena? :D

&&, i'm allergic to white wine :( i'm having rashes on my back & chest.. wtf please! joseph gave me spritzer ( white wine & 7up ). now it's itching.. not badly, but still i think tolerable?

the most i'll ask for MC tomorrow :D



my eyes are closing.. the moment i lie down on my bed, i'll conk out.. i survived on 5 hours of sleep. school tomorrow. SIANNNN :(


oh well, im a happy girl :) gotta cut down on my outings this coming week & be a good girl! :D


i cant wait t drive! :)

& stupid yena's keeping me in suspense over dunno what! & esther's saying our batch can only drive at th age of 21. sucks pls. hope it's not true :D


xoxo

everything's fine. i didnt cry for nothing :) i cried for forgiveness.

am glad mom's willing to forgive me. maybe this time it's really God's intervention.

yup, i'm lucky mom's going to church. else she would be much.. crazier? :)

& really.. esther.. is so lame. overdose of her kills! she's even lamer the lizhen pls. THEN HOW?! everybody's immune to that already lar!

now it's the stupid LIGHT SAVER monster roaring away. imagine esther doing that.

*rolls on the floor laughing all the wayyyyyyyyy.... till i drop dead.

but thanks esthie :D for offering your house! :) & next time i wanna drink, i'll go to your house hor. just a street away. woooooo.


okay, when im in a good mood :) i think i get super lame also.

a sigh of relieve :)

xoxo

i've cleared my clothes, hell its alot of clothes. i really have no idea how i'm gonna make up to my mom. i'm really ashamed to see her. sigh..

i've packed part of my room. it doesn't really look like a war zone now. cept for my table. i really gotta start clearing up my bookshelf so that i can clear up my table.

i slept at 5am, woke up at 10am. wtf?! im tired but i just couldn't continue sleeping, i got no idea why. i dont feel like staying at home, dont know how to face my mom but i've got no money t go anywhere either.

i'm gonna be an immortal today.

i'm so warm, i shall go bath. after playing so much at WCP ytd i didnt even bath when i get home, just too lazy & tired.


badabadawalala. i wanna go visit my "condo". sigh.

i'm so disappointed in you. i never wanted things to turn out like this. but i guess, this is what you've asked for. every single time we break up, we'll end up in arguments over nothing. it's weird isnt it?

xoxo.

[edit]

i realise i got 191 bux left, not 91.

i apologized to mom. she didnt reply me. i'm damn fucked up & frustrated now. i'm crying and crying. and it's not like tears will mend anything. dont even need to count to 5, tears will start rolling.

the two things that will get my crying like fuck. family & boyfriend.

what kinda shit have i gotten myself into?

[/edit]

tonight's events are damn interesting. i dont know where to start.

i know i'm in the wrong, but yet again, why am i throwing such tantrums? i should'nt even let those words outta my mouth no matter how pissed i am. she's afterall my mom right? she has the right to scold me.

i feel damn bad, i broke her heart. i'm just an useless piece of shit.

i believe no one expected me to stay out so late. kinda got my aunt involved. i made everybody worry about me. & the funny thing is, i dont even know if my dad knew i went out. or that, both mom & i went out.

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i'm kinda giddy now. had a bottle of nite orange, no barcadi breezer lime :( SUCKS PLEASE. & lizhen passed off as a 18 year old kid, when she's so much younger then us! HOW CAN LAR!

but nevermind, i feel young :)

had maggi goreng for dinner. :( my bad, i didn't wake up for dinner despite them calling me up. i didnt even know there were people calling me up la!

walked all the way to west coast park, it's not really far. played like mad fools screaming my lungs out on the flying fox thing. yena's a happy girl :) super tired & warm. lied down on the dunno-what-thing. & its damn painful.. but if i can feel pain, means i'm still alive. :) i just stared at the empty space above me. wasn't even in the right mind to think sensibly.

started t feel my face flush when we went to macs. the alcohol took abit long t get my flushed up & dizzy. started to feel damn warm lar :( drank some water & yea.. i'm cool. but crap never stops coming outta my mouth.

we decided t spin arnd orchard. hahaha, the only thing we see at orchard?! cabs, cabs & MORE CABS. so now we know, when's a good time t take CABS. :) of course, not forgetting the 50% midnight charge. :D

i dont know why i am so happy even tho tomorrow's gonna be a disaster.

but whatever, i came back first. aunt was still msging me at 330am. i feel bad bad bad. & i hope granny doesn't know about this :( else she's gonna be damn disappointed.

i've decided, to apologize & pack my stuffs tomorrow.

that's the least i can do, no?

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another thing i wanna rant about.

i dont care about anything that's happening in YOUR life. i really dont give a damn. one moment, you can say that you broke up with your girlfriend, the other moment? you tell me you broke up AGAIN. & actually.. you went back to ur girlfriend after telling me all those shit that you hate her & stuff.

i'm not fun to play with. & i know nothing good will come out from you. you're just one childish fellow that loves t play with feelings & lying through your teeth.

i think i'm rather smart now that i decided t go back with kervin. nice guys have their bad sides too. you need to get a life & go find yourself a GIRL that will listen to your wimps & wants - not forgetting you whines about your goddamn NS life.

i dont see why people can go serve the country WILLINGLY for only 2 freaking years of your life. if you live to the age of 60, it's only 1/30 of your life. isit that TOUGH? why do you have to grumble so much, like HELL I CAN HELP YOU or even SAVE YOU FROM SERVING?!

& i dont see why you've got the cheek to even call me now & ask me where am i, or what i'm doing. i really dont see a need to report to you. i'm not indebted to you. whatever that happened before, i treat it as nothing has ever happened. because i'm so disgusted by your actions & lies that really, i wont ever give a flying fuck about you anymore.

ng sheng yuan, you can go jump down the god damn building, i bet no one will give a damn at all.

and another thing? i didnt leave you hanging AT ALL.

esther is right, fucking NS guys are all desperate guys. it's proven - thats the majority. :) ricky is not. LOL!

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so i've said my piece :) flared up & now, shall forgive & forget. i think i'm blind. :)

thanks nana & lizhen for th company & erh, usual rantings & crap.
thanks alvin, for th ride.

good morning world :)

xoxo

i swear i'll cut down on my profanities soon.

quarreled with my mom. and the words fuck cheebye accidently flew out.

uhhuh.. i swear too much.

mom left the house. i was angry. but now i'm worried. i dont know where she went. & i hope she'll be back.

im gng out also. i'm super pissed & worried.

gng t drink with yena & lizhen.

oh whatever. i'll come home, a drunk lady.

rachel, you suck. seriously suck. you nidda get a life & not go on.. like this. what the hell are you thinking?! she's your mom.

ugh. im in deep shit.

lol. i hate liars please. liars shld die. so much for saying i really like you. bla bla bla. i broke up with her.. blablabla.. den now, you tell me u broke up with her again?

HAHAHA. you shld go & die la. wanna be fake? i can be fake, i can lie too.

eh waitamin, means i was being cheated. LOL. hell to you man

rachel is dumb.

i'm talking nonsense.

xoxo

i'm super budget now. in total, i've already withdrawn 120bux within 2 days. oh well, i hope i can survive thru la! left 200bux, after deducting my hpbill, i'm left with 90 bux. 90 bux for 9 days. still alright i guess. - i swear my mom's damn irritating. i dont know what she wants please. but i dont give a damn la. i'm so damn pissed. im gonna blow soon. i'm gonna scream at her soon. i'm gonna throw things at her soon. i'm gonna.. gonna..

leave the damn house & have my dinner.

& if she continues ranting nonstop, the more i wont pack my room. i know its in a fucking hugeeee mess. it's like stepping into.. a war zone? lol. i've got things all around me.

but the thing is, my room will NEVER look neat. i've got too much things in my room! i've got a HUGE BIG L shape table, a bunk bed, a bookshelf, a smaller table ( my sis's supposedly work table ) & a fan.

my room's HUGE, but then with all this things inside, my room looks pathetically small, with only.. like a small square of free space.

i dont think its messy, it's just cluttered, lol any difference? my table alone has a 17" LCD moniter & a keyboard. on the left side is my laptop. right side is the TV & jukebox.

if i take out every other thing, only will i have space to WRITE. lol. now? i dont even have space to write. it's just the normal wallet/hp/earpiece/battery/school papers/books on the table.

& i share my cupboard with my sis, and i swear its messy & i've got no place t hang up my worn once clothes. so i'll hang it on my bedside la & mom complains its messy. but do i have a choice?! i cant hang it behind the door, there'll be wayyyyyyy too much clothes, the door will be swingin' cause it can stay open.

so yup, i think my room's cluttered not messy. :]

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so, today...

went to bugis to have seoul garden, super full & now i'm still so damn thirsty la. didnt get drinks & yea, still dehydrated.

i ate lotsa hotdogs :D that's the easiest t cook & eat.. no? it's so fattening la :( i'm eating so much now..

walked arnd bugis village, so freaking warm & i was super sleepy despite waking up only at 11 :D dad went to simlim t get DVDs :( i've got to dump the idea of getting an external HDD. dad says one cost at least a 100bux. hahahaha, what a joke :( i'm gonna wait till later then. for this month, i've got no money t spend anymore :) just enough t cover my meals :)

came back home & went t nap.. all the way till 8 :D i just woke up. i think i sleep too much, i wanna sleep somemore! lol. so i only ate lunch today. LOL. no one woke me up for dinner. how great eh.

it's either i eat alot during weekends, or dont eat at all. lol, weird :)

ohwells.. some pics from long time ago :) i realised my recent pics are all missing! :( i dont know which folder did it go to :D yes, my laptop is as disorganised as my room. :D



overload of stupid faces. i love this man :D


go to the 6th floor of cathay, this is what you WONT see. taken 14july. :D


my skill not bad leh :D



sunset is super beautiful :) i love.


ehem ehem, hahaha! joke of the day. caught on camera uhhhh.. :D lizhen having affair. LOL

i dont know what to comment.


yena's toes. VS

my toes :D mine longer leh! LOL

ohwhatever. i shall go play some NFS. and looking at the state my room is in, i'm also lazy to pack. whatever.


good evening world.

xoxo.

thursday, i went to bugis.

friday, i went to bugis.

today, i'm going to bugis again.

what a joke pls. why am i always gng to bugis?!

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i had a damn good sleep :D & had a dream.. but its a dream so, kinda disappointed & i know it wont happen :)

mom & i are still on cold war. rayna's the messenger! :D

i'm thinking of getting another line.. instead of paying so much to singtel. i rather pay for two lines & get say, 1.5k msges? & i can change my phone also :) but it's a 2 freaking year contract. LOL. i don't even know whether i'll need to use the line for 2 years.

but at the moment, my bill is still tramautizing ( sp?! ) me. :(

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when i meet God. i would like to ask him.

1. why is my life so screwed up?
2. why do guys eat so much but nv get fat? what kinda gene did he put inside them & not us?!
3. why the hell did he even create me?

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the definite song on my playlist nowadays is fergie & teriyaki boyz. i dont know whats wrong with me la! i'd rather say goodbye to those soppy songs.

so i'm over the emo-punk, rock & metal, sentimental phase. now it's r&b. it's forever there. i wonder why.

this is a rather senseless & random post, & if you're reading this sentence.. means u've read thru all my crap.

good afternoon world.

xoxo

im practically drained out. & i've proven myself yet again with the TP's :) TP's just lovee me & yeap, i can be part of the TP team one day. fwaha. i'm talking nonsense at 12 in the morning :) i just got home.

i dont give a shit what's gonna come to me tomorrow. you want it this way, i'll give it to you this way. i can stay away from home for as long as possible, come back t see you sleeping & wake up late in the morning. i dont care la!

apparently, you also dont care much eh :) oh whatever! had enough.

-

so after MC & yena decided t go to geylang, i took a bus back to NP with zhen before changing a bus t clementi.

went t meet ken & jackson for dinner. super late dinner, was rather hungry until.. i didnt feel like eating. :) ate hokkien mee.. hrm, long time since i had that, but then again, i had too much in th past la.

going back to that hawker reminds me of the days where we have lunch during lunch breaks & rushing back to tanglin for practices. OH WELL.. long gone are those days.

went back to teban with them, wanted t wash bike but apparently, waited for like an hour or so, but still didn't manage to wash. they're pigs & water buckets pls. they are either eating or drinking.

& i'm a rich beggar! :) cause i dont cut my hair & save up the money. & there's a new brand.. made for beggars. adidez. LOL. super funny pls. so, sick people can be funny too eh.

went down to prata shop to meet up with yena, MC & lizhen. i just sat & entertained & crap. i'm super tired from all the laughing most of the time at nothing.

i guess that's what i do, to hide myself :)

the friendship between yena, lizhen & i will stand, nothing will come in between us. :) friends first :D i'll let go & get rid of whatever shit that's gonna harm th friendship. LALALA.

i'm going to bed & the last destination of the day? my gooood ol bedddd & hopefully sweet dreams.

good morning world

xoxo

I HATE YOU.

i'm so pissed already & i fucking hate all this shit happening.

please stop fooling around i'll really appreciate it. i dont mind being happy but if it comes with a price, i dont need that shit.



yena's a mutha fucker! AHHHH!! she made me pose for shit! LOL.
meichan's place is GEYLANG. HAHAHAHA :p


spent money again, & i've yet to pay my hp bill. OH MANNN.. bot a pair of denims :) 18bux. HAHAHA yena & meichan are like aunties bargaining like siao please. :D i love them.


saw mailina & ricky also :D me is happy girl. :) just trying to hide behind a facade. :)

i think i've already mastered the skill of reading the meaning behind lines, i'm good. thanks for the training.

im so bored, i can fall asleep now. @ mc cafe's chair. :)

xoxo.

i'm sitting at the basement of cathay now. just shared a bowl of meesua together with yena, when there's yena, there's food! :)

cabbed from school to gekpoh to return the DVDs :) and then cabbed to town. pretty cheap la! like 20bux shared within 4 people. :D

had LJS for lunch! super shiok please :D damn fuulll. and when i'm full i feel like sleeping :) walked from far east to heeren and felt so tired. feels like we trekked from school to town. walked to two shops & sat down at spinelli to rest.

we're old.

& i dun wanna meet derek already la! so long please. say what go li ming sun kenna accident there to eat like i know where?!

oh man. i feel like sleeping. :( i'm gonna start playing NFS again! :DD & i found alot alot alot of stupid photos from our previous outings. and i got no idea how come every single person who walks pass will stare at us. why huh?! isit very funny to see 7 kiddos playing with the laptop. LOL!

oh well.


NFS MOST WANTED.


xoxo.

credits to fazil :D

credits to ME!

HOTTEST GOSSIP IN CLASS :)

i believe all of us will give shawn our blessings.

right yena & lizhen? :)


THATS FOR MAKING US FRET OVER NOTHING!

kenna punk`d by them, i made a big hoo ha. & everybody's laughing at me. SHAWN YOU SUCK.

we're in the same group as the good ol ninja turtle. :) i feel so fucking relieveeee..

thats for you shawn, beautiful picture eh? i spend 15mins of OOP lesson editing that okay. :) APPRECIATE PLEASE.

since you love her so much to use her to punk us.. that's ur retribution :D

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we're thinkin of skipping NF :D hahaha! they wanna go shopping spreee :( but i'm so freaking broke.

my handphone bill came up to a whoooooooping 110bux with 1905 messages. WTTTF. heart almost dropped out when i saw the bill. THIS SUCKS MAN.

fazil's reading again, wtf! go & die zillo.

alright, it's freaking cold in class. :D

oh man, im so lazy t write the program. it's like writing what i wrote last sem la! so troublesome & boring. so i wont write anymore :D

the only person who can lift me high & drop me down. why am i always getting this kinda fucking shit?! i hate it so damn much please. i'm not living in my own world, i know what's happening outside & it's not fun to play around with girls who are damn good friends. we know everything excuse me. blahh. & i thot i was happy. but i guess im not.

alright.. till then.


xoxo

whatever bad start of the day i had is being well justified :)

I'M A HAPPY GIRL. HAHAHAHA! :D

decided t go into island to look for derek & skybar people :D

had lunch @ harbour & walked in circles in harbour & vivo with alvin before going in.

sat at skybar for a good 2 hours talking crap with zayra & joseph. really feels different sitting there. especially when i see the new girl working @ the kiosk, i feel like telling her "i'll do it." hahaha! perfectionist thinking. she's just.. i kan bu shuang. :D

went down to store & talked abit with derek before leaving. so funny, kenna pangseh by ah boon. den he gotta do pushcart. HAHA! so funny.

went out of island to meet alvin, went to bugis. super hungry pls. went to V8 to have dinner. hahahaha, as usual - sirloin steak :D now i'm smarter, no more well done. medium please :D

walked around & stuff. got my polo tees from giordano. :D SUPER HAPPY LAAA. wanted to get the long sleeve top.. but it looks big even tho it's S. yeayeayea, rachel in S sounds weird. hahaha.

& stupid twit poses started coming up. laughed like mad, felt like dying there & then. super funny please! can't believe.. so old already still so childish hahahahaha.

so afterall, not bad a day. :)

i'm going to sleep with a hugeeeeeee


:)

on my face! :D

tomorrow school, sigh! :( gotta head down to jurong to pass stuffs t my granny. OH WELL.. :)

i spend 60bucks today. im penniless :D

14bux on food, 30bux on my polos, 10bux on hair dye not mine. hahaha 6 bux on lunch & entry t sentosa ( SUCKS LAR!! )

broke. :D

& i'm comforted that i'm not as heavy as i think i am. HAHAHA. but then again, i eat too much lately. i shld be cutting down instead of eating more.

IM TIRED. i shall go sleep :))))))


xoxo.

rachel :D

PS.

good luck for tomorrow's BTT :) hope you're well well prepared huh! end in mind? drive the damn car! :D jiayou. (((:

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i fucking regret not going to school now. THANKS SO MUCH.

i think every thursday im gonna skip school. or for that matter of fact, every lesson UID lesson. how suay can we be :( grouping today. & same group as that TWIT. i swear yena's gonna jump down the building if she knows. LOL. yena, :) we're in the same group as pinky.

i hope nobody's laughing at us.

I HATE IT

im going into island to COMPLAIN to derek.

BYEBYE.

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i'm so damn pissed & i'm super hungry.

hungry woman = angry woman. & its proven.

& i hate my mom for being so unreasonable. it's not like it's my damn fault that the disc is making & she made a big hoo ha blaming MY ROOM & the MESS in my room. like hello? i didn't even take that stupid disc. i didnt even watch that disc lar! how the hell could it be in my room.

fine, she scolded me, dragged my dad in - whining about her sad her life is again. MINE'S EVEN WORST PLEASE. and start her crap.

& in the end whatever happen? the stupid missing disc is in her room's DVD PLAYER. her room is so freaking neat but still cant find the disc right?

so i've proven that MESSY ROOM doesnt even MATTER whether things can be found anot.

fuck, i'm crying. so fucking pissed with my mom.

i hate people being unreasonable & scolding me for things that i didn't even do. & i still have to do them favours in the end.

i need to go out. im fucking pissed now & i dont wanna stay in this house. ARGH.

& she even has the guts to go complain to my aunt. FINE, i'll complain to my grandma. FUCK IT.


i feel cold war coming up, but i dont give a shit. it's not my freaking fault.

MORNINGGGGGGGGG LADIES. :D


i woke up so damn early & im not going to school.

all thanks to yena la! i msged her. went to bath & everything. LEFT HSE ALR den she reply.

i trotted home happily :D hahaha!

so the class will be damn quiettttttt today :)

oh whatever! im gng back t sleep. lalalala.

anybody wants to go out? rachie's freeee! lol

xoxo

things i need to do badly. REAL BADLY.

1. do some spring cleaning on my lappie. it's getting toooo slow & uh, too many shit stuffs! need to reorganise my photos/musics/movies & school related files.

2. i need a external HDD. hope dad goes shopping with my this sat for it, else i'll go down myself & stupidly buy one that i cant use.

3. i need to get my desktop working AGAIN. somehow it came alive & dieded again. pretty useless course i'm in, cant even do things related to what i'm studying. OH CRAP.

4. PACK MY DAMN ROOM again. my room never stays neat for more then 2 weeks :D

5. i need clothes! this sucks.

6. i need to save up for my trip which i might not be going

7. i need to finish up my da vinci code. i took 5 days t read last year, but 1 year later.. i'm taking more then 2 weeks.

8.



i cant think of anything else. so many things to do. but i'm sleepy. feeling headachey. :( OH MAN. NFS addiction is starting again! :D

had a good dinner, was starving! rushed home to find NOBODY at home till around 7 -.-" what the crap! now i feel like sleeping.

school definitely drains more energy out of me then working.

& i'm so glad that school ends at 3 tomorrow :D OOP lecturer is cancelling tomorrow's class cause he thinks he can put it with the friday morning's class. I DONT MIND :) can leave school early! so why not :D

& if the two girls are gng to town, i might go & get a ride home from my mom! :D pay's coming in tonight!

tomorrow's lessons sucks big time please! UID & BIS. i feel like skipping school tomorrow :D why isit that thursday lessons always suck big time? last sem's thurs lessons were horrible as well.

i

feel

like

skipping

school


tomorrow.


TO SLEEP. :) rachel, you shouldn't even try to harbour such thoughts!

uhhuh. oh well :( i wanna bath & conk out alr! :D

we shall see tomorrow.. whether i feel like gng t school. :D

xoxo

rachel :]

LAUGHING OUT LOUD

perfect example. YENA!

she watched john tucker & laughed out loud TWICE in front of the lecturer. SUPER FUNNY PLS.

im hungry again :( the stupid chicken rice from canteen 2 sucked pretty much! not nice t eat :( shld've eaten western.

waitamin, why am i so hungry nowadays? bad mood = hungry woman. LOL.

im craving for lotus soup & ginger chicken from soup restaurant. anybody? :D

&& i've been watching drama for the past dunno how long alr! 3 hours i guess.

stupid fazil always runs for smoke break & comes back SMELLY & everything. i refuse to let him sit beside me. HAHAHA :D

stupid lecturer is biting his pinky -.-"

xoxo