the dried skin over my lip is so freaking irritating, lipgloss doesn't work either.. i wish so much now that i can just.. use a scissors & cut the skin away. gross i know.

feels good to lie down for an hour, falling in & out of sleep. with the occasional small dreams. :)

that's th best thing i can do.. to keep me occupied. feels kinda weird that i'm back to the routine of waiting for sms-es. hahahaha, hen tong ku pls. not a nice feeling. not a nice sight either. hahaha.

its funny eh. imagine 3 of us. sitting side by side, constantly looking down at the phone admist whatever we're doing. hahaha. & the occasional wee taxi! sound.. or the, vibration of the table. hahaha :)

i just feel like blogging.. i've got no motive in this entry, neither have i got anything good to write about. sighhhhhh..

i wish i could re visit korea :( at the age of 11, i knew nuts. shuqi & i slept in the bus until we didn't get down. hahahaha, mommy didnt even realise that i was still in the bus. super funny! :D then again, from there, i know mom really cares. :)

or.. sliding backwards on my skis. super funny! i was so small & the skis were so freaking heavy.. & i was sliding backwards.. hahahaha. :D & bro skied down the slope so quickly & crashed with another person, his front tooth dropped.. funniest shit ever. :D

so whatever i cant do now.. i'll do it in the future?

im gonna visit korea, australia ( maybe sydney & perth ), japan, states!, UK? :)

HAHAHAHA...


i'm dreaming alr :D


goodnight world.

i suddenly have this feeling.. a feeling that i havent had in a long time. i dont know, isit sadness or jealousy? my heart skipped a beat...

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dear kervin,

i dont know if you'll read this. tomorrow's the 28th October 2006. it marks the second year which we're supposedly be together.

many things have happened throughout this 2 years. break ups & quarrels were so common. sometimes i wonder, was there even love?

i'm so sorry that i've decided to leave. it's a decision that was tough to make, a decision that has been procrastinated for too long.

i hope things will be better & i'm so sorry for being so cold.. for the past 3 weeks.

and i hope you'll remember something. throughout the 2 years. i never stopped loving you. you may wanna go ahead and think what you always think. that i dont love you. but that's not the truth.

i might say i hate you. i might say i dont wanna see you. i might say things that hurt badly. but, inside me. all i say is i love you.

but now..

its time to let go...

happy 2 years anniversary..

i hope you move on with your life, & i am sure you'll find a better girl who'll love you more then i loved you, a girl who'll take care of you & a girl who'll put a smile on your face everyday.

xoxo

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