i sometimes wonder, was it a mistake to leave shalom?

maybe if i had not left, i would still be the good girl staying at home all day right? listening to everything mom's saying..

but i guess, leaving shalom has somehow changed my life quite drastically now.

it's all the late nights out & hanging too much with the mates. what would life be, without all this?

but then again, i'm glad that even tho many things has happened thruout this year, the people i've brought along with me.. and then me being me, left.. & for whatever reasons that they're still staying on at shalom, i thank God that they had not left - like me.

im pretty ashamed of myself. whatever has become of me?

good for nothing, sleeping in on sundays, refusing to go to church.. & the bible? it's missing already.. hiding admist my stacks of rubbish..

i failed :)

but whatever, it's part & parcel of life, a route to eternity ? sad enough, i've stopped believing in that. anyhow.. shall see how things go. maybe i'll go back? maybe i'll not..

i'm still thinking whether or not to jio yena out for dinner.. HAHA, you see.. i didnt see her ytd.. & im missing her.. you know you know.. AHHAHAHA.

jackson from skybar says we're lesbos! HAHAHAHA.

whatever.. i'm off to iron my clothes! :)) i want denims! i realise i'm pretty dumb. for a moment, i've got so many cargo pants.. then jeans, the 3/4s. den now denims. -shakes head. hahaha

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MU TOU REN! :D

xoxo <3