i just came back :( we're almost done with UID, proud of my product! :))

& my room is really like a warzone. it's really getting very bad. i'm gonna pack it during th weekends:) it's really getting toooo messy.

i only ate a meal today. :) powerpower.

alrite, i'm gonna continue my UID altho i'm so tired :( sighhh.

lovelove:)

XOXO

LADIES & GENTLEMEN, BOYS & GIRLS,

WELCOME TO EPISODE 5 PART 1! proceed to yena's blog for part2 & lz's blog for part3. ( i'm sure the whore is so KPO that she'll go read:))

THIS IS FOR DEBORAH

yes, you are desperate & IT CONCERNS ME cause you've intruded my privacy by sms-ing ME, msn-ing ME, & emailing ME! :) & for goodness sake, i didn't even say that i was interested in whatever by whatever dance pointe school.. i didn't even express any interest & you took it on your own initiative to msg me. so i guess, i don't need to reply anything at all? :)) this is called HAO XIN MEI HAO BAO. learn whore, learn. :) i guess i dont need to have courtesy at all since i didn't even mention that i wanna go. oh waitamin, i forgot to mention that i'm only interested in hiphopdance:)

my boyf & i are so superly sweet. i don't deny that. i didn't show off at all babe:) i don't have to show off to you at all. my boyf & i are definitely so much better then you. at least i dont have to sneak out to meet him or even ask MY EX to lie to my mom that i'm with him, but actually i'm with my boyf.

WHY IS THIS PARTICULAR DEBORAH LIKE THAT?! when you're with mag, we lie for you. when you're with ruixiang, you ask MAG to lie for you. what has your LOVEY DOVEY outings gotta do with mag that she has to lie for you?! BEWARE! ruixiang, if you read this, becareful yea, who knows she might meet a new guy, and break up with you den be with him th nxt day & ask you to lie for her so that she can go LOVEY DOVEY with her new girlfriend/boyfriend (who knows, she might end up with a girl again..)

i know your house is sparkling clean. cause of all the clothes i'm throwing around.i dont deny that my room's like a rubbish chute now i have absolutely no time to pack because i'm soooooo busy with my school work:) at least, i'm an O lvl graduate:) with an O lvl cert, persuing my DIPLOMA. you? PSLE HOLDER:)))

so you're still innocent in the sight of others, but you're so not innocent in our sight. that proves that you're a hypocrite:) i don't need you to change for me cause i don't give a flying fuck:) you're not even part of my life at all, why should i care? you're sucha a hypocrite:))

and the christmas party? it is not restricted at all. the organisers have the right to ask whoever they want to come along, and obviously, the main objective of this party is a reunion for slackers & we have the right to ask whoever we want & of course, whoever we dont want to come. :)

chris, mag, sam & dennis put in effort to organise a party, and you? did nothing but cause trouble & name the party DARN. what rights do you have?! you don't even have any rights to label the party, DARN.

in what ways isit dirty? i'm blogging & it's in the world wide web :) what has it gotta do with singapore?! i'm sure people from overseas can read, but you just don't know that their reading. please, use your brains not your butt..

& i think, we all wasted our energy & time showing concern to you, since you don't even need it at all. what fools we've been through this period of time.. we could've done more meaningful things then wasting our time on you.. sighhhhhh.

i am actually being called a smartie:) cause i can actually see how happy you people are. and i do have the talent alrite:) and i suddenly feel that my english is sooooooo fuckin' good:) cause i see some grammar errors & wrong usuage of words. hello, you trying to show off your lousy english? if my command of english is as weak as yours, i won't even bother typing all those things.. :) at least, people won't laugh at me:)

i would like to quote this from deborah, just let everything happen naturally. let the actions of yours, rachelsow and magdalenechee, depicts the truth. it's depict the truth. :)

deborah gave me a new name, christian rachel sow. WAHAHHA! nana's buddhist yena yong, zhen is free thinker wee li zhen, fazil is muslim fazil:)) HOW CUTE PLS. people, call me CHRISTIAN next time! :))) i will only respond to the name CHRISTIAN.

i know that homosexuality is wrong. do you know it too? is being blur& everything an excuse? woah, i'm blur& everything. so i can kill someone and get away with it. is that right? yea babey. :) that's a fuckin weak excuse my dear:) don't be dumb. :) since you can be blur, why can't mag be blur too? :) oh, blurness is for you only?! does it mean that she's a year older, she's more mature? love blinds everybody.

and for your info, i dont classify myself as a christian now:) i don't even go to church. i go to church, just to make mom happy. so, don't assume anything at all. :) i'm gonna change my name to free thinker rachel sow soon:))

and this is the end of EPISODE 5 part 1 :) we're happy to continue this wordy warfare.

i hope you enjoyed:) cause i really enjoyed:))

**

nana's mom made nice egg sandwiches for us:) & i've been blogging this for like so damn long, an hour i guess. what a waste of time! :(

i shall go continue my UID now.. :)

slept late, woke up late. but wasn't late for school :)) & buddhist nana said the wrong thing to the teacher this morn. hahaha, & the teacher started naggin at her. HOW STUPID PLS. :)

oh well, gonna edit pics ltr:) shall post it up ltr.

TILL THEN,

i love my BOYF:)
buddhist nana & free thinker zhen:)

XOXO

p/s: remember, my name is christian.
pp/s: refer to BUDDHIST NANA's blog for part 2 & FREE THINKER zhen's blog for part 3:)

i'll upload the rest of the pics tomorrow:) i'm so lazy alr la! so lazy to even continue doing the stupid UID, but i promise, it'll be done by tomorrow:) i'm so proud of myself.

gave myself a good dinner, although i didn't pay for it :P thanks nana&zhen :D had my deliciousss chicken wings :D i am a happy girl. :))

took alot of stupid photos with the boyf while waiting for nana to be back from sending zhen t the bus stop :D

i got a jackson kor & i got a jackson di. HOW COOL PLS. okay la, i'm so evil. i'm stuck in between two jacksons. & some idiot, let him win, he say always let him win. DUH. SMACK YOU AR.

& i keep on disturbing my kor cause he just got his internet connection :DD i kept asking whether he knows how to type, whether he knows how to download. i'm so evil :D

boyf sent me an mail tdy, about our horoscope & er, basically what we are.

LEO WOMAN


She will stand out of the crowd on the street. Leo woman normally tall or
rather tall. You will hardly see a short thick woman. When she walks she
walk like a queen, confident and does not look around, though as if there is
no one around her.

She will dress in her own style not according to fashion. She is confident
of what she choose to wear. Do not buy cheap cloths where they sell in dozen
for her as a gift, she will hate it. Also do not buy cloths that do not
reflect her confident personality. She likes unique and strange cloths and
accessories. Being different is what she loves.

If you want to know her, take times and be patient because she is selective
about people she mingles with. She's open minded, but yet she is not letting
people get to close to her easily. She likes sweet words and compliments,
but not too much.

She smiles with anyone, but inside she thinks she is borne to be a leader.
She likes to be in control because it is in her nature instinct. She is a
graceful woman , and she has a magnetic charisma, so expect tough
competition.

She is a very proud person, so do not do anything to challenge her confidence.
She can be mad and act like a hurricane, and later can be like an
innocent kitten, but do not fall for her O.K. She remembers everything and
likes to cherish her sweet memory, so if you find her old photo albums with
her ex-boyfriend or love letters that will make you puke, take it easy. She
is keeping her sweet memory does not mean she still in love with the old
fool, so you do not have to panic.

She will have many guys run after her, so if you have advantage of a good
background family, or a famous last name, a successful career then it's a
plus. She hates to be poor and she thinks love will not pay bills.

She is a sport type and love sports. If you want to date her, prepare to
spend big bugs, for your first dinner with her can not be a hot dog stand,
but better be the best place in town. She is a generous person, so do not be
surprise if she give you a gift more expensive than what you gave her. She
likes extravaganza, no cheap gift, no cheap dinner please. Being poor or
broke make her depress. If you do not have lots of money, be creative and
make your own gift for her. It's unique quality and times spending making it
for her is a big deal. You can think economical, but do not be cheap.

those in bold are true, and the one is super huge big font? is so fuckin' true. so pls don't do anything to challenge my confidence. when i say i'll do it, means i will do it. & yea babey, i did it.

halfway through my UID, told you i'll accomplish something. it's a matter of whether i wanna do or not. when i start, i put my all. so don't ever ever doubt me again. & now, i am going to complete my UID latest by tmr.

:)

MYLOVE by JT's been on my repeat list.. for like damn long alr :) 19times. still can't beat because of you :)

i love my boyf:)

XOXO

i feel so fuckin' accomplished:)

7page layouts. :) not bad not bad! :) of course, photos done by fazil.

proud of my team, proud of my girls :)

now it's break time :)

gonna quickly finish up stuff & go home. and continue doing at home:)) haven't even had time to edit photos from yesterday! :( but fazil edited one nice nice merlion picture that i took. :)



PRETTY HUH! :)

& i pretty powerful today. ate only 2 currypuffs for the whole day.. 1 can of nescafe, 1 cup of ice milo & now.. still trying to finish my tehcino..

XOXO

i love my boyf:))

hello people.

im going to have a performance on 16 DEC at UCC theatre.

keep this day free to relax and enjoy the magnificent dancers DANCEPOINTE SINGAPORE has been nurturing! (:

i will assure you that this is not just another performance but its a showcase of the talents' work!; to show how capable we are!

the ticket sales are still on and if you guys want to enjoy this performance, call me at 92299373.

for your information, the theme of this whole show is "REALM DANCE".

interesting, isnt it? :D

so what are you waiting for? quickly give me a call and order tickets from me.

feel free to help me push the tickets sales to your friends or relatives.

eh. of course, this is not free.

and the tickets are sold like this.

matinee (1430) - $20, $25, $35

gala night (1930) - $25, $35, $45

its not very expensive and im sure its worth all your money. (((:

thanks for your cooperation and support for us.

last but not least, part of our ticket sales will be given to SINGAPORE AUTISM SCHOOL for their uniforms and everything.

isnt it a meaning full one?

so what are you waiting for? quickly pick up your cell phone and call all your friends to watch this performance!

call me asap at 92299373, ok?

thanks a lot. (:

may God bless you.

deborah

so desperate? you blog it out, smsed me, msn-ed me, now you email me. ARE YOU GONNA CALL ME NEXT?!?!

i am so not interested. ROAR

**

i'm the fourth one in class today. singapore's gonna snow! :DD oh well, nana&zhen are late, that's why i came t class first. :))

apparently, i didnt wake up last night to do my proj:( i didn't even wanna wake up this morning la! but no choice, my UID attendance is at risk.

**

anyway, sidetrack abit.

i hate people to dare me to do stuffs. and waitamin, reverse physcology doesn't work on me.

when i say i am going to stay up and do project, i dont expect people to tell me "haiya.. no need to do already la.. sure wont do one lar." fuck you.

i hate people telling me that i won't be able to do this and that. i will be able to get things done:) so don't doubt my capability.

&& i hate people complaining so much when things are done, as an incentive for them.

**

alright photos up later :) edit abit here & there.

& i'm gonna chiong the UID project for the whole day. i'm not gonna care about my other modules tdy :))

if i write you a love noteeeee. my love is so nice:)

JT albeit gay has a good voice. LOL

XOXO


REPLY TO TAGS:)

Vien: you talkin about what? the picture on the chair? that's not me girl. that's denise. HAHAHA :DD

esther : come we sleep together :) on your bed with delicious pillows! :DD chill girl, meet up soon kaay. i miss you :D

mag : thursday can't la. i got lessons till 4, gotta chiong proj & my mom got badminton competition, must go support abit. SIAN PLS, nvm :D i go dunman find her. hahaha!

i am so tired :( it's a long yet short day. alrite, school was short.

i'm really tired & i'm having this stupid headache now. i really feel like lying down on the bed & sleep till tmr morn. but no, i dont have the luxury to do that unless i'm done with my UID. else i dont have the peace to sleep no matter how tired i am.

i envy some people. they can just sleep as and when they want, do things as and when they want without having to care about things. sometimes, i think i grow up too fast. i start planning stuffs and getting my life organised too early. i should enjoy the i-dont-need-to-care-about-a-single-thing lifestyle. guess i got outta it too quickly.

the COMT 2min speech today was hell. i got a stupid topic that i have NOTHING to talk about. tell people something about you that nobody knows. how the ?!?! am i supposed to talk about this stupid thing? doubt i even made it thru 1min30secs. :( this is so bad. i feel so unlucky today.

i wanted chicken rice for lunch, but it wasn't open. great! i wanted chicken wings for dinner :( but we were too full to eat somemore. greattttttt.. everything's not going my way & every single thing irritates the hell outta me. i don't know why. might be PMS, but i get pissed off very quickly & start snapping. a lil too touchy i guess.

so at least we have some pictures of the products from the "singapore collection". we took quite a number of pictures before getting chased away. but i think they are pretty dumb:) we were like taking photos for so so long. but whatever. :(

anyway, the banner for the webpage singapore layout is pretty cool :) i like.

i am so lazy to do work already. i just wanna go to sleep. and sleep forever:(



pretty aye? credits t fazil:)

alrite, goodnight:)

XOXO

still struggling with the stupid UID.

my bad for procrastinating. just live with it i guess.

it's dark alr. & i'm tired. i wanna break down & cry.

i hate project deadlines & commontest & exams.. :(

2 more weeks, & it's over.

the class room is so fucking stuffy its making me groggy & sleepy. NO AIR CON, no ventilation, no oxygen. all carbon dioxide with 20 freaking people.


i really wanna sleep. sleep & sleep.. i am so fucking tired & lethargic.

we're all having fun with myspace :)) we're dumping friendster.

the class room is so fucking stuffy its making me groggy & sleepy. NO AIR CON, no ventilation, no oxygen. all carbon dioxide with 20 freaking people.


i really wanna sleep. sleep & sleep.. i am so fucking tired & lethargic.

having OOP lessons now :) & nana's cracking her over money matters cause christmas is coming! :) i'm so touched, they want to get me a new phone for my christmas. HAHA! :) & getting zhen her nano. LOL. & nana doesn't know what she wants. HOW DUMB.

gonna stay back till quite late for UID proj later :( then i wanna go get my M card & have salmon teriyaki dinner! :D cravings! & i want ferrero roches. :(

lizhen's so smart, she brought her whole photo album down to school to do. smart ass. :)

i'm so sleepy. something's wrong with the aircon. it's making me nose itch.

the reason why i'm bloggin.. read it below the pictures :) enjoy the pics ah.. :))





stupid chair that we all paid a dollar for. feels super comfortable :) knowing that you actually.. PAID FOR THAT CHAIR. lol

i love the macro function on k800i :(






**

is it so amazing that i voted NO on the issue that your boyf be brought along to the christmas party?

so you think i'm always on your side? you're so wrong. i have never been on your side. or rather, helping you at all. you very well know that it's a slackers thing, you very well know that your exgirlfriend is one of us. & you very well know that the breakup & everything made her super sad.

& know you come and say that you want to bring your fucking boyfriend along. for what? to show off right? to show off that he's so sweeeet.. and to show her that you're happily in love while there she is, doing all she still can do for you.

even if it doesn't hurt you. as a friend, i feel hurt for her that she scrimped & saved so much. skipped meals to buy you that fucking bag. & where's the bag now? where? hidden in some corner with spiderweb all over?

she sacrificed so much for you. & here you are. being so fucking fake. you've taken everything from her. what else do you want? her friends? you're trying to take her friends away from her?

use your brain to think, not your butt.

the people you know now, are all through her. your social circle. is through her. obviously, our friendship is so much stronger then what you think we are. so no point trying to take her friends away. we won't pity you.

you changed so much from what you were. not the innocent girl i knew.

i rather not have you as a friend.

deborah, that whole chunk of thing. is for you. you can jolly well leave the clique, i dont give a flying fuck. i guess nobody does. you've brought too much trouble & making too many people upset.

**

i love my boyf :) i gotta write more mushy stuffs here to prove yena wrong. hahaha! boyf's the best :D i love you, you love me. we are happy family :D

XOXO

Project deadlines coming.
Common test coming.
HOLIDAYS COMING :)))) i am so looking forward to clearing all those shit & get to the holiday part quickly :D

so many things going on during the holiday period. 4/8 organising chalet, i'm thinking of booking another chalet for myself, with the boyf, nana, zhen, my kor & whoever else la.. :) but it wont be christmas period. tentatively 19 to 23, 3days2nights i think. NO IDEAAAA. the 4/8 side have yet to confirm & i got no funds :( SO SIAN PLS. i wish money would rain from the sky. FWAAA. :) what say you nana&zhen?

alrite, so far so good. for the past two weeks i've been to school everyday cept for last friday. my bad, but band's more important :D

Ailing asked me t go for precious moment show with her at BPP this coming week. so i guess i'll be meeting her for dinner & watch the show. :) it's friday, UID deadline is over, so guess i'm free. :))

this whole week's gonna be chiong chiong chiong for the stupid UID proj. there are tons to do & i've got no idea how we're gonna complete it. :( gonna stay in school everyday i guess.. & i've yet to complete my COMT. sighh.

but anyway, i got my earpiece! :) matt black one. :D i'm a happy girl. HAHAHA! think i'm gonna sign a new line before the year ends & then cancel my singtel line after this month's bill comes in :) expenses so sky high. SIGHHHHH. i need to work.

i miss the boyf.


i'm always procrastinating :( i feel like sleeping but yet i need to do work. i just feel like pushing it further & further away.. sighhh. i still have to get it done. YIKES.




XOXO

well oh well. after camp yesterday, i was pigging out at home & mom brought ryan&rayna on shopping spree @ popular. they bought like 100+ worth of stuffs. & ryan got his converse bag.. they're so lucky la. they get what they want :( rayna just got her school bag for next year.

i didnt get new school bags every year :( i didn't get expensive bags.. i didn't get xbox games, i didn't have a computer.. i didn't have anything at all. all i had were trashings & more trashings (is there a word thrashing?)

this jealousy thing is really getting the better of me. i shouldn't be jealous. but it's so unfair, now when i want things, i'm asked to pay for it myself.

but daddy agree to buy my ear piece for me :D going down to sim lim later :) i was just asking if they accepted nets, i didn't wanna draw money out.. & daddy said "so leh cheh. buy for you la" :D

so i should be happy with what i have i guess. :))

feels like ages since i last saw nana&zhen. 3 days! hahaha :D i miss you all :)) time to start working on our projs :D

alright. shall nap awhile. boyf's working. so bored :( but then again, he needs th income to YANG WO. hahahaha :D

i'm gonna go get the Mcard again.. it better be the right one. since dad's paying for my earpiece. i've got more to spend. :D YAYNESS.

XOXO

i love my boyf :)

CAMP UPDATES :D
warning : this entry is super long, you're not obliged to read if you don't want to. [X] sign always available :))

this camp is a mix of emotions. i guess i'm all, happy + sad + thankful + grateful + loved?

after yesterday's "mini concert", i finally put my finger on why mag&i were so uncomfortable in np's band & that was the reason why we didn't join their band. there wasn't love at all in that band. there wasn't much bonding. it's all, you do your stuffs, i do mine.

i didn't practice anything at all. it was sit & play. everything was in a rush. but everything still went smoothly minus the tears & sobbings occasionally. i think things really change very quickly throughout this two years. but then again, i learnt alot.

pretty glad that i changed :) put down my ego & gain lots of love. at first i didn't believe that M.T was different. M.T gave us love. but after these two years & yesterday. i understood what they meant.

it's so heartbreaking to see her cry, so heartbreaking to know that she's actually leaving us.

i really hated the way she scolded me, the way she was so sacarstic towards me, the way she was always against me. and now, i hate the way i was..

and now, she's still saying "rachel ah.. first day so naughty.. naughty girl ah" & although i was tearing like mad yesterday, i managed to wipe away tears quick & control.. & she went "aiya.. i want to see rachel cry" was already crying M.T, crying in my heart.

sometimes, i wish my parents were like her. being so understanding. oh well. she's a good teacher, i'll always remember her :)

i guess she was really touched when we presented her the songs, making the effort to put on full band U, the cake, the presents, the cards, the dance, the formation. we love you.

**

after all that crying, smudging of make up (nurool ah.) & talks (M.T was still giving her talks :)). time for BBQ. :)) we started arnd 11, was super late alr & i was tired. mag & nurool went crazy. really crazy. they started dancing/jumping & shaking their heads like mad fooooooooools. i'm amazed that they still have so much energy in them.

i ate alot alot of hotdogs :D the satay super power! very gooood. denise & i decided t bath at arnd 1. & it was freaking cold, water was super strong. and the stupid cubicle was FLOODED. i had t run t the next cubicle to change. LOL. yes, naked.

denise & i conked out at arnd 130.. & slept till morning. SUPER SHIOK! but it was freeeeezingggg. & mag still on-ed the fan. wtf?!! hahaha. so freaking cold that i stole the blanket :x

**

woke up this morning & went around looking for food. samuel & guys were slping in the parade square. super shiok pls! at least their "bed" still got cushion :( we slept on the floor & my muscle's aching abit now. so lousy i know.

for breakfast, i think i ate 1 cup of noodles, 2 pieces of pizza bread. alot alot of chicken wings. LOL & i made the old people drink. condensed milk with water. SO NICE, but freakin sweet! & i was dying from thirst. drank like only one small cup of lime juice during th BBQ & imagine the amount of charred food i ate. surprise surprise, no sore throat :D mag take care of your voice pls.

mag's the YAN-BU (handsome girl) & samuel's the CHIO DAO. (pretty boy). so random :D

but anyhow. went home after breakfast. super tired alr. & they were washing the bball court with the fire hydrant again. i swear the school's OM is ridiculous. we can't use the fire hydrant cause when we pull, the hose will break?!?! then fireman pull.. also will break what! HOW HOW HOW?! can't fight fire alr right. defeats the purpose of a fire hydrant duhhhhh.

& i admire mag's patience. despite all the attitude given & stuff. she still went on. i would have probably exploded and screamed into people's faces. give me shit, i'll give you shit. i guess i've given alot of shit to my juniors. but i hate hearing people complain about them. no choice, scold scold scold. punish punish punish. my 2 sec2 girls, dont know whats wrong with them. jessie especially. almost made her run rounds cause she was sleeping away.

no commitment, no nothing. & really, we don't need to beg people to come back. it's your heart & your own gratitude to come back & put up a nice concert for M.T. is that so difficult? showing your attitude & stuff.. does it make you feel better? -.-

anyway, pictures :D

taken last saturday :)


games time! :)



aftermath of flour games..


people who put in so much for this camp:)


gifts for M.T








**

casino royale is crap! super long show & draggy.. made it somewhat boring.. went to tampiness t get xbox games from this buyer..

why do the two young ones get what they want? ryan didnt score very well for his PSLE. then why is he getting games & stuff? what about me?

& why can't my mom stop comparing? she's so ashamed of our results she doesn't even wanna tell aunt about ryan's results. shouldn't be parents be proud of their children no matter what? she's so ashamed of us. there's no theory that parents with good calibre = children who are smart smart smart.

why can't she just encourage us instead of being so ashamed of us?! she's even naggin and naggin that results are no good even though the results are out. for christ's sake, what can we do now?! & she's fuckin stubborn. ryan's intelligence level is higher then mine. that's why she doesn't have to force him to study, unlike me. i'm being forced to study. cane infront of me. it's so unfair. it's proven now that i'm the one who can produce results, although not much of a difference. but she's always showing off that ryan's better.. telling everybody that ryan's better then me. now, i've proven her wrong. even aunt says "now she should know who can study"

SO UNFAIR.

i feel so unloved at home. oh well, it has always been this way. i'm always the one who's stupid, who cant score for her exams.. ryan's the one who's always good at studies even though he gives the family so much shit. & me? always getting shit because of the things ryan do..

_|_

i love my boyf :)

XOXO

PS : i got my allowance :) i'm so happy. no more cash strapped rachel :D

i got so many things to blog about. but i is wanna sleep now. i'll blog later, when i'm back from the movie i guess.

i am so tired. :(((((

after today, it's back to school work & project deadlines. ROAR. i dont like.

apparently, my group mates have no initiative t send their part of the essay over, & i'm not done with mine.

so tired, so many things to do.. i'm gonna start SOON.

OFF T DREAMLAND.


XOXOXOXOXO.

i love M.T. she's th best. :((

[edit]

fuckin' hungry! waiting for the rents to be back & it's off to th movie. & it's raining so heavily.. hope all th flour stains on the bball court are washed off.

i wanna sleep somemore :( slept for around 3hours plus. really feels damn good. i wanna get up, but just too tired to get up. BLAHHH. hungry hungry!

& i'm super broke. left with 2bux. HAHAHA, wtf pls. ltr when i go out, i won't even bring my nets along. LOL. no point, cause i cant use. :D

oh well. pictures ltr:) time t get change..

love. :)

oh man, it's pouring so heavily :(( i'm so hungry. i want my prawn noodles.

& now cause it's pouring, i cant get to school, nor get my prawn noodles. ROAR. & looks like the rain's gonna last till damn long. ROAR i dont want. make it stop please :(

the boyf's pressing away on the piano keys outside playing anjing.. hahah good try :DD

i'm so bored la. i want prawn noodles! :(( think i'm gonna stay overnight in school today :) & blahhh. rain please stop. :( boyf has school later somemore. roar.

**

oh welllll.. my band U's dirty :( but i guess it's alrite la. HAHAHA.


i dont know what to blog.

goodmorning world.

XOXO

i'm so tireddddddd..

anyway, ryan got 221 for his PSLE, AABA. the same as mine :) but i got 3 more marks :D wooo! now i can hao lian to him :D childish i know, but whatever. he's always telling me how good he is, how many A*s he's gonna get. but now? NOT EVEN ONE. boooo!

but afterall, he's still my brother. i love him.

went for band.. but they weren't practising alr. i really dont understand. you're holding the concert for M.T. the why can't you all put in a little more effort? no use crying when she's leaving, just put in some effort, put up a nice concert, make her happy. but now? you're giving attitude to the people who have NO REASON at all to help you all do so much stuffs.

& also. if you wanna come back, come back on your own accord. don't come back & show attitude.

oh well, i'm not done with my essay. gonna do it tomorrow i guess. :(

hahaha, gonna skip school tomorrow :D i can wake up alil later tomorrow. YES! :) i'm craving for prawn noodles from the coffeeshop opposite mindef. ROAR.

alrite, blog tmr or smthng :( i'm super tired. got so many things to lug down to unity tmr.


XOXO

i love the boyf :) he's so nice t come & pick me even tho he's tired.. & i know it horrrr.

what is jack's favourite partner?
beanstalk.

who's yakult's rival?
bacteria..

thanks fazil, it's gettin cold in here. i gotta put on alot more clothes.

**

everybody having sushi phobia now. lol! & shawn's not in school, think he is suffering from indigestion. :)) i dont think i'm ever going back to eat sushi till next year :D hahaha! it really is that scary.


83plates of sushi.

but the sushis came 4 in a plate, so didn't look that much, but we were all stuffed to the max.

**

i lost my mp3's USB cable. :)) & i gave up doing my essay, my java. & now i'm gonna finish up the BIS. hahaha, everything's done halfway. oh mannnn.. i just finished my java quiz, 90/100. i'm lazy to do again cause i dont know which one is wrong. :( because of laziness, i decide to forgo that 10marks :D

i dont know if i want to stay in school today after the practice. i'm not coming to school tomorrow :D it's only 2 hour lesson, maybe get people t sign for me or smthng :D gotta bring so many stuffs to unity tomorrow. & i'm going there to take the black protective case for my uniform. if they still have any left. :D

**

my earphones cable are breaking alr :( when i get my allowance, i got so many things to buy. my hp's earpiece, the mcard now i'll buy the purple one, the correct one.

**

i forgot to mention ytd, while i was walking home, gotta walk thru th playground. this group of.. say sec sch kids, they were going to sell icecream. & my music was blasting so loudly into my ears & i just ignored them & walked.. then this stupid boy shouted into my ears. even with him shouting in my ears, i still couldn't hear anything.. hahahahah. that's how loud my music is.

&& later into the night, they came up to my house t sell ice cream. and it was so noisy outside i walked out, & one of them said "aunty, buy ice cream for your daughter la..". hahaha, what a joke pls. i seldom eat icecreammmmmm. wahhahahaha.. i gave them the stupid fuck off face. lame shitttttt.

RRRRRRRRRRROARRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

i wanna sleep. hi fazil. :))



what we used to be.. everything changed..

XOXO

i'm so tired :( and so full.. yena&i clear i think 35plates of sushi. 10 of us ordered a total of 133plates of sushi. POWER. shawn & guys had a tough time clearing things up.. & even sneaked some out to throw. LOL. super power pls. see la, greedy pigsssss. & i'm amazed at the amount of food they can eat..

& i hate sabrina goh. ROARRRRRR. that ah ma got her driving license today. I HATE YOU SAB. you had better bring me on a drive sooooooon & we'll go shopping in a carrrrr. HAHAH! no more arguing which to take, bus or train :D

dont know what's wrong with my mom, cant even talk on the phone. so irritating you know (she just said this sentence to my bro). & they were quarreling early in the morning at 7 -.- disturbing my sleep. tsktsk.

i dont know what to start doing first. i am so freaking tired.

i think i shall nap on my table for awhile. :)

and then start on the crap shit java which i know nuts about.. & there's UID & BIS also. wtf?!

common test schedule out alr.

UID ( 11dec ) : 830 to 10
NF ( 12 dec ) : 4 to 530
OOP ( 13 dec ) : 130 to 3

i dunno what happen to BIS. poor zhen gotta go for exam on birthday :((( have fun after that yea!

**

& lizhen has been super lame today. & happy i guess :)) i ate watermelons today :DD & the ice cream at sakae is SUPERRRRRRRRRB. strawberry is sour :(

MY MOM & BRO IS ARGUING AND ITS FREAKING NOISY PLS.

XOXOXOXOXOXOX roar.

i've got so many things to do todayyyyyy. :(

gotta finish my java coding for tmr's lesson ( and i know nuts )
gotta complete writing my 200 - 300 word essay for th stupid COMT info paper, nt forgetting the intro & ending. :(
gotta pack my band uniform. abit too late to wash it, i havent once wash my band uniform since like what?! 14 april 2005?!?! hahahaha. :D

i'm skipping school on friday cause it's only 2 hours of lesson, i dont care! for th sake of band, anything also will do. :) tomorrow's gonna stay in unity till quite late, sighhhhh :( but anything for M.T

gotta chiong all th way tmr la :( damn lousy tone & skills. ROAR, i dont think considering the standard, i guess no one will believe we got silver. HAHAHA.

**

i got tons to do tonite. sigh. especially the java, it's horrible. but anyway.. i still have to do it. no point whining.

IT'S RAINING SO FUCKING HEAVILY. I HATE RAIN. ROAR.

i've been swearing too much.

WHATEVER.


i love the boyf :( altho he upsets me. ROAR. :D

i got warning letter from UID. how dumb. i think my i'm entitled 15hours of running-away-from lessons. but i think everytime we're late, she consider us lesson. what a bitch!!

& fazil's lame. after knowing how many sms-es i send, he said my dad shouldn't be a major. he should be a major shareholder of starhub. fucking dumb pls. & he said i can have all the sms-es i want, and press until the buttons of the phone drop out also nevermind. wtf?! so lame pls.

bangla, take away the N&G what do you get? bala. so fuckin lame. & fazil's always laughin to himself. how dumb. he's ranting nonstop about sggirls.com & kengtheng goes to GAY SITES.

super funny pls.

nana&zhen enjoying their korean/jap dramas, i dont know which. :)

i'm so pissed with myself. we got th wrong mcard. how dumb. i'm gonna finish using this 18bux. ROAR. & ryan says i shldn't be angry with myself, i shld be angry with th UID lecturer. :D & we're gonna beat her up. okay dumb.

**

what i blog in here, is for my own keeping & of course, my own "happiness". i dont expect people to read & use whatever i write against me, or make me feel bad. or question me about things.

so trying to be pitiful. i hate it, i give in to you time & time again but that doesn't mean that i will always give in to you.

**

i just cut my nails :D

we just bot stuffs from co op & we're gonna have a goood meal :D hahahaha.

sakae ltr :( but no cash. i dont wanna drawww! :( shld've brought out my 4bux. LOL.

oh well. :))

XOXO

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY Q.Z :)) i'm so sorry buddy i forgot.

SORRRRRYYYYYYY.

&yea, continue being your good boy yea :D see ya soonnnn.

**

im so freaking tired now. stupid shit headache i'm having. this is shit.

i hope i can do smthng bout my Mcard. else i'll go mad payin 18bux for nothing. screwwwwww it.

ah whatever, im freaking pissed at dont know what so dont bother asking.

i just feel like being angry.

maybe the stupid menses is coming. AHHHHHHHHH.

i gotta rush my COMT essay latest by tmr. :(

taking bus is good, at least you don't have to always be alert..

XOXO.

IS is boring, waste of time & totally nonsensical.

so many new movies coming up :) casino royale this saturday :) i wanna watch Tenacious D - jack black, should be good eh. & dejavu & just friends. oh well. super budget now, but anyway..

mom gave me 50bux t help pay my phone bill :) my alter-ego hates me but mom loves me :D

had rather lousy lunch, should have eaten jap. i'm so sleepy. nisha's nt here, blarh. i want to be at home also.

had 1min speech just now, stumbled my way thru. was staring at the ceiling half the time thinking of what to say. oh, my topic was teenagers dont know the importance of money. i guess it's true la :)i myself dont know the importance of money. what mom said is true. i work & slog for so long & the money goes back to the govt in the end. ROAR. pretty dumb. it's gonna be the first & last time :) gonna get the Mcard ltr :)

**

meeting boyf & my "bro" later :)

**

got no idea what the lecturer's talking about la. dont know what am i supposed to do either. IAC sucks big time pls.

**

i wanna sleep already :(

goodnight world.

XOXO

i just created history in my life.

4037messages. : 201.85bux. I COULD'VE GOT MY NUM BAG.
last month's sms : 55.45
add both months tgt, i could've gotta a nano. OR SHOP LIKE MAD

rachel, you're so fuckin scrwd.

i'm so pissed at myself.

what's wrong with today?! it's monday blues aint it? abit too late right?!?!

I AM SO PISSED.

217 bux.




rachel i hate you. ARGHHHHHHHhh

[edit]

it started raining fuckin heavily right after i typed this post. ROAR.

i finished a packet of chips by myself :) SATISFACTION! but i would have been much more satisfied if it was lays.

the mates are enjoying botakjones now :(

long lost joan just called me up :))))) i know it's nth good. she wants me t go for her church camp. HAIYO. anybody interested? 17 to 19 dec @ changi, 25bux. ANYONE? i'm so nice, even if i dont go i help her do advertisement :))))

anw, she says its nt gonna be boring. cause its all games & such. bonding.. why do i have t bond with her church people?!?! she says just bond with her.

HEE:)) I LOVE THAT PHYSCO FREAK. hahahaha!

i shall consider :)

[/edit]


mag : I MIGHT BE SKIPPING SCH ON FRI :) if my CA is on wed, den fri i only gt 2hours of sch, im lazy to go :D so maybe i'll go stay over on thurs. I DONT KNOWWW. see how first :D LALALA

**
loads of profanities. bear with it.

im so fuckin' pissed. it was raining so heavily when we stepped out of class, why cant it rain heavier earlier?!?! nevermind.. the walk to the bus stop was normal. but hell, the rain started getting heavier, there were insects scurrying all around. so fuckin disgusting. and the was practically a swimming pool cause the drainage system is SCREWED. & the whole ground was practically flooded.

fine, since it was raining so heavily, i didnt dare take the risk of taking 184. afraid that i couldn't be able to walk over to the lrt station. FINE, i waited for a good half an hour for that stupid 75 t come. & when it came, i got on. & it stopped raining. NOT EVEN ONE SINGLE DROP.

God you're really having fun seeing me so fuckin pissed right?!

it was even raining at all in bp. i am so pissed.

nevermind, the guy on the stupid bus was carrying this BIG BACK PACK - the DG kind. and he refused t sit down cause he was prolly talking to his gf. FINE, just take the bag down. instead of squeezing in the small aisle & stuffing your bag up my face. its so fuckin annoying.

& plus th fact that i'm so hungry & the mates are going for good food.. i was fuckin angry & hungry.

almost slapped the person's face. would have stabbed him if i could.


i felt like i just battled world war 4 to come home.

on a lighter note, i bought myself potato chips to console & satisfy my hunger :))))

BUT IM STILL PISSED.

im going to bring the rents to the supermarket & shop.. & charge all my junk food under their tab. :D

and im gonna continue watching ANTM & enjoy my chips.


**

:)

XOXO

[edit]

school stuff due this week..

NF CA on wednesday & i know NUTS about the OSI or whatevercrap shit. :)
1COMT essay submission due 8dec, but submission within the group to collate everything is this friday. & i've gotta write the introduction & ending. what the crap :(

this is week 6. exams coming week 8? i think so. :) rachel you're so dead. you're gonna cramp your head with 7 weeks of crap.. till your brain cramps and go into spasms.

TIME TO STUDY. time to cut down on going out.

sorry boyf :(

[/edit]


omg. i am so freaking tired & sleepy.

when it gets boring in class, we turn to blog-hopping or blog writing.. :D

alrite. :) we reached class at arnd 945 :D & lesson ended at 1030. how great! :) not sure if our attendance are signed, but watever.

watched ANTM cycle 7 since the start of lesson :D until now. watched arnd 3 episodes? :)) it was fun laughing at th stupid girls doing their thang..

& it's really ridiculous how they backstab one another & be so sacarstic!

but their photos turn out really really pretty, so different from the real person.

**

ohwell, i dont really read stuffs that are long & naggy :) but yena said smthng & i went to read that long naggy shit la.

really, if you wanna leave this clique go ahead nobody's stopping you. cause really, we dont need sucha hypocrite within our midst.

i believe if you tell someone a story, you wont say everything right? for others i dont know, for you i'm sure. you'll definitely say things that will help yourself, and not say bad stuffs about urself no?

every human does that.

so don't try to be so good or holy. i know you're not, you're just being too fake.

i can't stand fake people.

i feel like stabbing you. AHHHHHH!!

**

okay mag, you havent finish your story about band stuffs. pls continue when you see me ah :)

**

i miss the boyf :( he made me angry ytd. ROARRR. he hung up on me, i hate people hanging up on me. & that's when i tried to explain myself.

kervin, sounds like you NO?! hahahahaha..

but whatever :D i can't stay angry for long at whoever.

**

first love is fuckin' nice. :)

**

th reason why i can't commit t being a good christian is because i can't leave my worldy stuffs behind.

i cant stop swearing.
i have to worry about money.
i have to worry about the boyf :(

in simple terms, i can't give myself wholeheartedly t God.
i'm not prepared to leave my boyf :(

the thing about religions. sighhhhh.

tell me, why must i marry a christian. alright, i know the reason. i'm asking the very obvious :)

**

OOP lecturer's MADDD.

he's using the RP method of teaching :( i dont like. ROAR. that's why i didn't choose any RP course. waitamin, all my options were NP. :D

alrite, i think i write too much & i am becomin naggy also.


XOXO

i love y'all.

it's raining:)) good night's sleep today.

we went down to escape theme park & there were TONS of people. the rides had long queue. :) sat down in burger king with mom & had hersheys sundae pie! :))) my favourite!

i'm surfing youtube, watching ANTM cycle 7 :))))) i love ANTM. haha :D singapore's broadcasting it too slowly :) i've got like so many windows open. each window with each season's vids. all loading slowly! :D don't think i need to sleep tonite:) i love ANTM. really fun to see them backstabbing each other. fwaa! im evil :D i know.

youtube's loading so slowly. roar!

**

i wonder how am i gonna divide myself when christmas comes :(

there's th slackers party i dont wish to go cause of church people, don't feel like seeing them, but on the other hand. i really miss them alot :(

then there's nana&zhen.

then there's the boyf :(

i'm gonna divide myself into three parts. head, torso & legs. hahahaha! :D

**

alot of unexpected things do happen. & what nana say is true. there are pros & cons to having a boyf within th same clique.

when things are good& happy. the whole clique goes out tgt, laugh & smile.
when things are not good& NOT happy. the whole clique turns cold & nasty.

sigh. i've decided t stop blaming myself for all those shit that happened within our clique. hor mag? :)

now i choose to believe it's XX's fault instead of mine. XX's the one who changed so quickly. XX's the one who started her nonsense.

and really, XX you being fake, is too obvious. we all know that you're faking things. :) stop tryin to be innocent. you fail. really.

so now i got no idea what's gonna happen within the clique & the coming party.. but i think i shld show some form of respect as a friend t turn up at least for a short while. :)

i love my friends. and i dont wish to see them hurt or even angry.

:)

**

i think i'm going for supper with them.

XOXO.

alrite :) continuation. fwaa!

we had our usual pancake for breakfast :) but there were so many people. duh, it's saturday.

went for band & chatted abit with mag before gng in. :) stoned awhile & watched them play cause there wasn't a saxophone for me :( and we had 8 freaking saxophonist. 6altos & 2 tenors. POWER! the bari was spoilt. lol!

went for lunch break :) had black pepper chicken with rice. & there were SOOOO many people in the food court. damn saturday. & the food court stinks. ugh.

went back & miss tan came! :)

we played pirates, but it sucked. super lousy. guess it's my fault :( AHAHA. whole line of sax-ist were out of tune. :) & tone sucks like mad! UGHHH.

but a lil tuning & stuff. back on track. tho not as good as what we used to be :( I LOST ALL MY SKILLS. fwaaa.

string bass came in. FREAKING HUGEE! damn cool, sounds like the horn sound when the boat leaves the pier. LOL.

didn't really do much of combine cause dennis came t fix instruments :) ohohoh, i forgot to mention, before M.T ( i copy mag one :X) came we played blueridge & sg rhap. sounds all wrong & out of sorts. super messy. everything that we chiong for 8 months is GONE alr. after that silver, everything that we chionged out is thrown away :( how t present t M.T like that? sigh.

but anyhow, we played in the winter of 1973. was just sight reading it, but mag & raj, too kan chiong. chiong so damn fast. the winds couldn't catch anything at all. i just skipped that whole phrase. hahahaha. super shiok right mag. :D

play pirates again, i was playing half th song. i lost all my skills pls :( i can't run notes, can't get that stupid tone, cant be in tune. sight read so slowly. OMGGGGG. something's wrong with me :(( i am so rusty :(

band ended :( so sad pls. goodbye MT, thankyou MT. Godblessyou. almost teared. i'm gonna miss her :(

and after band ended, drama started. tsktsk. refer to mag's blog. i'm lazy t type! band members are just so blur. :)))) but it was fun, standing outside school with everybody lookin' at us like we're gonna rob th school or smthng. hahaha!

**

met up with nana for dinner. cabbed down to clementi cause i thought i was late! 11bux :( had black pepper chicken for dinner. super shiok! & nana started her stupid retarded actions again! :) i shall upload th vids another day. super stupid.. :)

sat at bucks instead of the original plan of taking th LRT. talked about money money money! & nana's still so amazed i can chalk up such a high bill. oh well.

:)

**

went t church, my eye's hurting now cause i was rubbing it earlier on. sucks pls!

i hate smokers, i hate hate smokers. really.

but one's my boyf :( one's my dad.

i dont see th reason why people must smoke. why?!

ROAR.

dad's brother smokes, i understand. cause he doesn't have much education, hooligan kinda person. but dad?! i'm so disappointed la. i knew it long ago, but no evidence t prove that he was smoking. :( mom found ciggs in his car.

th reason why i abhor smokers. you people wanna go die, go ahead and die. don't make us die with you.

i'm sorry boyf :(

**

thinking again now, there are so many obstacles & differences between us. can we work this out? there are so many things to consider. i really hope love conquers all.

i would be lost if i lost you. i wish all this didn't matter to me, but it does.

everything's good :) nothing will go wrong right boyf? :)


**

pictures :)


unitysymphonicband :)



huge string bass :) sounds cool!




my oh so beautiful love :) it's yilin's btw. i don't have my own sax :( macro function in my cam nt bad eh? :))

& it looks freakin small, but it's freakin heavy! & i put in on a tenor sax stand, was so afraid it wld fall off.

that's my fourth love. HAHAHA

first's family.
second's nana&zhen.
third's boyf :)
that's th fourth! :D

alriteee:)

am going t escape theme park ltr with the family. YES, it's alr 3pm. waiting for my lil sis t get home :) i'm kinda tired. wanna sleep. but abit too late alr :( shall sleep in th car! :)

i need t get a bag ASAP. i dont wanna carry my converse bag with my laptop inside, bag goes outta shape & my converse bag's super dirty alr :D

all my bags are SUPER HUGE. & i've gt no bags t bring out when i'm heading t places where i dont need such a big bag.

**

ohoh, went to beauty world's food court t eat just now. food there is cheap&good. :D i ate mix veg rice, had fried hotdog with egg, chicken & veg.. 2 bux :D so shiok! had mutton soup also & sesame paste. SHIOK AHHHHHH :D

gonna rip dad off later :D dinner at changi village? :D

i wanna eat harbour's chicky rice :(

alvin's dumb. you can always become ghey t enjoy bio-ing the many yandaos in gym :)

**

alrite. time to pack my stuff & get outta th house.

I LOVE MY BOYF :)

XOXO

today was FUN FUN FUN! :)

band is good :) i've got a stomach now, guess i opened up my diaphragm. tone sucks tdy :( band sounded messy & noisy today.

roar! i lost my train of thoughts. i'll continue tmr :)

yena & i are going on a diet & savings plan nxt week :D sandwich & milo for lunch! fwaaa.

i dont know how am i gonna come up with the money t pay my bill. for the first time, rachel's worrying over monetary stuff. and it's freaking irritating. i pei fu yena, she can tahan all this. i cant.

thanks nana for accompanying me for dinner :)

SHE'S A MANEATER *dances* FWAAAAAAA. stupid yena scared th guy cause she was dancing away & she knocked into him. lols! and she was dancing away with my badminton racquet & attracting stares from people. sashying down the stairs.

she is retarded & mad. but i love her :)

i am going to sleep.

goodnight.

i love my boyf :)

XOXO

I AM GONNA SEE DENISE TMR.
I AM GONNA GO BACK FOR BAND TMR.

I AM SO EXCITED :))))))

myloves!


i'm so fuckin full nowww. BURP*
i stole some of rayna's maggi :)
and i made mexican chicken wings.

NOW IM HAPPY.

tralalala..

missin the boyf's company. but all is good. :) i'm gonna sleep well & have a fun day toms. :)) i'm finally gng back t smthng that i love.

i miss my boyf :(

XOXO

i'm so pissed now.

i'm sitting at home. but mom's out, dad's out. WTF?

i SHOULD be out now. if not for the piano technician coming & that i thought rents will be home so we can have a FAMILY DINNER but screw it! everybody's OUT OUT OUT.

FUCKKKKKKK.

this sucks pls. i'm so disappointed, thought could have dinner. but no no no! every freaking person is out. only bro & i left at home.

& now it's too late for me to go out also, and i've gt no where to go either. & i had maggi for dinner when i could go out and have dinner.


i am freaking angry. i wannt eat chocolates :( but there are no chocolates! i wanna try th mexican chicken wings, but i am lazy to cook them. i shall indulge in swensen's ice cream, but no, i'm not a fan of ice cream :(

i think i'm gonna sleep early tonight, or watch all my movies :)

I AM SO BORED AT HOME.

**

this is the second week. i've already moved on with my life, when are you going to move on with yours? you can't wait forever. just put it down, and move on.

**

someone is bbq-ing. i ate maggi but the smell makes me feel like eating fried stuff. i eat alot lately :( fattening lar. but whatever!

I AM GOING TO TRY MY LUCK WITH THE MEXICAN WINGS.

XOXO :)

i'm so pissed now.

i'm sitting at home. but mom's out, dad's out. WTF?

i SHOULD be out now. if not for the piano technician coming & that i thought rents will be home so we can have a FAMILY DINNER but screw it! everybody's OUT OUT OUT.

FUCKKKKKKK.

this sucks pls. i'm so disappointed, thought could have dinner. but no no no! every freaking person is out. only bro & i left at home.

& now it's too late for me to go out also, and i've gt no where to go either. & i had maggi for dinner when i could go out and have dinner.


i am freaking angry. i wannt eat chocolates :( but there are no chocolates! i wanna try th mexican chicken wings, but i am lazy to cook them. i shall indulge in swensen's ice cream, but no, i'm not a fan of ice cream :(

i think i'm gonna sleep early tonight, or watch all my movies :)

I AM SO BORED AT HOME.

**

this is the second week. i've already moved on with my life, when are you going to move on with yours? you can't wait forever. just put it down, and move on.

**

someone is bbq-ing. i ate maggi but the smell makes me feel like eating fried stuff. i eat alot lately :( fattening lar. but whatever!

I AM GOING TO TRY MY LUCK WITH THE MEXICAN WINGS.

XOXO :)

good morning world :)

i'm freezing in class. finished MI3 :)) re-watching phantom of the opera. it's freaking good! i wanna watch in th esplanade :( took th brouchure ytd, doubt i'll be able to watch it. 100over bux per tix :(


i'm so hungry now despite eating so much last night :( i think i'm used to having breakfast alr. ytd while we were at giant walking around, saw this pack of maggi mee with insects inside. super gross pls. those black lil wigglies.



took a couple of night shots :) not really clear cause it's from my phone's cam :)





i want alot of things. :(( i want a digi cam. i want th num bag which i've been wanting for so damn longgggg.. i want my damn driving license. i want my earpiece :(

**

things seem weird now. am i thinking too much or it is really happening? i guess it is. i didnt know i am invisible. i'm oblivious to things that are happening around me. & i pretend i cant hear things that i can hear. :)

i don't ask doesn't mean i don't know.

i always try to give my all as a friend. i don't expect anything in return, i've got nothing to say if things really change & happen this way cause of other factors.

i'm craving for pizza hut :( i want the chicken drumlets & beef lasagne.

[edited : 340pm]

i had chicken drumlets & beef lasagne.
i went out with the class for lunch albeit a lil short & rushed for time it was fun :)

it's time to spend alil more time with the mates like we used t, & cut down on seeing the boyf.

i love nana&zhen. i think i went overboard. sorrrrryy :) thanks nana, for talking t me. at least i know, & things are better this way.

**

the piano techician is banging away on the keys. & i'm done with phantom of the operaaa. :)

mates are gng steamboat & sakae-ing next week. i wanna go, but first i gotta think of where t get money.

i wished my hpbill came sooner :( it's taking so long to come & i'm spending money everyday. it's not that i'm broke, but i gotta leave enough to pay my bills.

& i hate ATMs that dont dispense 20 bux. ROAR. make me draw 50bux :(

the last time i paid my bill was 22october. so it should be coming in soon i guess :( sighhhhhh. money pls drop from the sky. i gotta recheck my expenditures. i'm like spending and spending and spending. i've never been so tied up with money before.

what is happening?!?!?

blah.

**

say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime.
say the word & i'll follow you.
share each day with me, each night, each morning.

i think i've said enough. i don't expect anything in return.


just my luck.

XOXO

hello hello :))

i have yet to blog today, which is great. i had movies t keep me busy :D Failure to launch & MI3 which i'm still halfway thru. :)

failure to launch is a tad stupid. not supposed to be lovers become real lovers. MI3 is much more interesting, action movie but alil unrealistic.

UID popquiz was alright, scored 11/15. not bad for picking answers randomly :) & the presentation was alright. crapped our way thru with my middle finger up in the air half the time.

BIS was nothing, as good as no lesson. stupid fat ass was droning on & on, and i was enjoying my show very much.

OOP paper sucks t the core. didn't have any tutorials with me at all. so even tho it's open book, it's as good as gone case :))

dear(: came down t school early cause it was abt t rain & his mates were gng back. so the rain stopped :) thank God. went down t jurong t return th disc & we went t suntec/marinasquare & esplanade.

dear(: had his first bowl of o-ah mee sua. & i swear th o-ah stinks. i dont like. didn't go for th motorshow in th end. felt like it was a waste of money going in for that short while. so didnt :) budget budget!

had dinner at lau pat sat. i can eat alot. ordered 3 dishes. stingray, kangkong and xia jiang jijia XIANG ji. LOL but anyway, it was good :) at least th stingray's better then the one on the other side :)

just came backed, passed thumbdrive t esther :D & i made dear(: speak t me in english. fwaaaaa. so cute pls :D i'm evil. :D

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the scar made by alvin's exhaust is gone, so alvin, i wont remember you for life. hahahaha :D

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i'm going to bath & sleep. it's good to sleep early :D


iloveyou :)

XOXO.

i dropped my phone again, WTF. the phone just flew outta my hands :( i think sometimes i do things too quickly. oh well.

i'm so broke. mom doesn't wanna reimburse me for the UID book. that's 27bux.

i've got tons of things to do but i'm still procrastinating. i'm really not in the mood to study, maybe life's been too high lately. it's always outings & meet-the-bf sessions.

singlehood is better, not that i'm not enjoying, but at least i'm more focused. oh well, cant blame no one else but myself :)

mom knows bout ken. doesn't noe who is he, but noes that i'm attached. must be th constant coincidences of the bike "sound" & my returning of home. oh well.

i dont feel like studying for the UID popquiz. i'm lazy to get the tutorials for tmr's OOP CA. and there's this stupid UID shopping experience thing that we gotta hand up tmr & oh well, the crapping part we can crap thru, but she wants evidence that we've been in th shop. but zillo says she just wants pics of th items. now that's easy :) can just get the pictures from the net.

i really think this sem's GPA is gonna suck real bad. all my work's done substandardly/last minute. i'm really pissed at myself knowing that i'm gonna get this kinda grades cause of my own doing. rachel, wake up pls.

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my coin cup's full. gonna exchange it for cash with my mom. 63bux worth of coins. not bad not bad.

esther, your thumbdrive's with me. when do u wanna collect it back? :)

fazil's a prick. but gotta give him credit for remembering all th questions th old hag asked & we've just gotta crap thru.

i am so bored at home. i've got tons of things to keep me busy, but i am refusing to lift my finger to do anything at all.

im a heartbreaker.

i wanna go visit the new singapore discovery centre :) i'm so kiddy pls. i'm still whining about how rayna & ryan get the stuffs they want. and i've to pay for my own stuffs, and even when i want smthng they wont buy it for me.

ranting wont change anything, just live with it. anyhow rayna's only 7 year old. she's gettin freakin irritating. & i keep on scolding her nowadays. she's whining and whining & it's so irritating. just cause ryan bought her th wrong drink and she gives the stupid face as if th whole world owes her a living. mom&dad still has t pacify her.

if i was me, dad's palm would probably on my face long ago.

bias shit. & they still say they treat us equally.

but nevermind, i wont bother to argue with mom. i know i'll never win her, so why bother.

mom's going into sentosa for th whole day tmr. asked if i wanted t join her after school, she'll send me out. but ohwell, go in for what? no idea where am i going tmr either. i suddenly feel so emo & feel like buryin my face in my blanket.

oh well. thats all for today.

i really got no idea why i feel so fucked up.

XOXO

i wanna go to the motorshow :( & it's ending soon. altho not much attractive models this year, but then again, i'm interested.

not free today, tmr & friday.
sat & sun's family day. HOW TO GO?!

we're having a picnic in class, chocolates, sweets & LAYS CLASSIC. my favourite :D & the stupid dumb shit lecturer's talking to himself.

i'm so sleepy i'm going home to sleep.

havent been out tgt with yena & lizhen this week. feels good t be swingin single. but i guess life's better with someone t vent your anger onshare your stuffs with. :)

i slept thru the half an hour lesson :) now am feelin not so sleepy. free ride homeeee

XOXO.

i'm so dead.. late for school today. heeee :)

got loads of assignments due. so dead pls.

5 OOP practicals - inclusive of this week's.
UID shopping experience crap - presentation tmr.
UID popquiz tomorrow.
OOP CA tmr.

EVERYTHING'S DUE TMR.

all this crappppp. sucks pls!

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ignore th previous the entry. was abit, crazed last night :D but i'm alright now.


love my dear :) he made me happy :D

alright, i'm gonna watch BUTTERFLY EFFECT 2. :)

&& i'm so dumb that i forgot t bring my adapter. how blur.

hi fazil :)

XOXO.

sometimes i guess it's wrong to meddle with the wrong things, things.. relationships.

i feel like some sigh i dont know. i guess i've gotten both close friends into this shit.

i'm so tired, i just feel like slping. pissed with myself i guess. the last thing someone needs to tell me is "it's not ur fault" cause i know very well, its my fault.

i am going to sleep. i dont know what to do. two words explains it all, fucking guilty.

fuck th UID pop quiz.
fuck th stupid BIS practical.
fuck th stupid OOP practical as well.

seriously, fuck school.
it has become a routine.
fuck you sheng yuan. stop fucking message me and telling me all sorts of ur crap shit, I AM NOT INTERESTED. fuck you.


no one can make me happy now.
my mood is damn bad now, for the past 2 weeks my mood has never hit rock bottom before. but now it has. ah fuck shit.

good day turned bad

fuck it.

i'm gonna stab whoever that appears in front of me.
scold whoever that irritates me.
i just feel like the whole world owes me a living.

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good day mates. (:

fausta tan shld be proud of me man. okay, no link.. but afterall he was th one who taught me english last year no? :D

not bad at all, english not rusty yet. i can still churn out a proper compo/overview. but then again, given this standard to fausta he'll probably give me a big fat C. maybe lecturer's lenient?

english english. ask me write a chinese compo & i'll get a F. lols.

hooked up to step up's soundtrack. not bad..

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anyhow, slacked at holland V's TCC ytd with yena,lizhen, ken & jackson. lizhen left early to have gooood buffet @ hotel intercontinental. & i contaminated her camera cause she left it behind :D

went to look for danny at lengkok bahru. sat there for like so long, so hungry. but nevermind la :D hahaha..

i think it's all fate that things happen. we shouldn't be guilty for the things that happen unintentionally. hor jackson :) i know u'll never read this but whateverrrrr. i just need someone to support my "theory"

we didn't intentionally go by the wrong road & it was even more unintentionally that the stupid damn BMW cut into your lane. so it was necessary to feel guilty at all :) we all know what happen so it's alright..

i've recovered from shock. was still trembling when i got up ken's bike. LOL. picturing me in that scene. i think i'll probably be screaming my ass off. LOL.

went to AV to have dinner, but are we super suay or what lar. 3 times we're there, twice it's close. ROAR. ended up having dinner at the "restaurant" but food's good tho :) had alot alot of vege lar.

no idea why only yena & me's laughing at jackson's stupid stunts. & i realise all three of the guys bring tissue with them. i'm ashamed of myself. LIZHEN, be ashamed of urself also! LOL.

alright, meeting yena later. that kuku nv come t sch again :)

think, where to gooooooo?

XOXO


that big fat A brightened up my day ALOT :))

got the shock/fright of my life just now.. really kia tio. but glad that yea, they're fine :))

im lazy to blog now.. i wanna go lie down on my bed.

so i'll continue tomorrow.

i need to recover from shock. LOL.


uhhhhhhhhhh love you! :)

xoxo

monday bluespains. the usual urinary thingy. but whatever, it's here t stay, so i had better get used t it :)

yena's not in school, but she's coming later. she didn't give me a chance t bomb her phone :( that damn girl off her phone. ROAR.

i'm so bored i've got nothing to do in class :( no more dramas t watch & dad has yet t burn the shows out for me. ROAR.

stupid BIS lecturer is droning on & on. time t start muggin on my own :( how th hell am i gonna cramp 7weeks of info, 4 modules of info into my brain?!

& lizhen's in school cause she wants to blog. haiyo. i have weird friends :X i'm in school cause i want the attendance :D

my phone's been kinda busy lately. usual ken, jackson & yena. pressing the buttons nonstop. my phone bill hahahaha.. i daren't think bout it :D

its freezing, i forgot what i wanted t blog about.. i shall sleep, or edit pictures & create another collage :) oh well oh well oh well..

i miss you :(

my damn blogskin doesn't work well in IE. view using mozilla pls :x HAHAHA!

ohwell :) i shall edit abit here & there laaa. :)

incessant rants of a very. crazy&happy girl :D

XOXO

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my laptop's running out of space. HAHAHA. super loads of junk inside. imagine 34gb of pics, music, movies. SUPER JIALAT.

anybody wants t sponser me an external hdd? :))

i'm going to do something about my desktop so that i can transfer my stuffs over. lappie's gonna lag damn badly. & might consider reformatting my whole lappie. :)

ohwell, im gonna entertain myself over the next two hours with john tucker must die :))

XOXO.

since i'm so bored, & i've got nothing to do.. lets blog abit about my music/band life.

for the past 4 years, band has been my life. it was band day in day out.. talking about band with my dearest band-its. every tuesday & friday afternoons were left for band.. for 4 years, it became a routine & it really felt weird without having t stay back on tuesday & fridays.. especially that O lvl period, it was HORRIBLE.

of course, we always went back for band sneakily.. hahaha.. nobody could stop us. right denise? :)

let's just say, my band life is contradicting, it's so political that everything we do is for the better of our own "careers" & for our own uh.. say portfolios/posts.

i started off as a nobody ( everybody starts from there no? ). played the saxophone ( i insisted on playin th clarinet.. but then on second thoughts. i still love my sexah thang :D ), went into main band cause they needed people.. but i ended up as an alto clarinetist. pretty cool instrument, but then again, not much parts.

i was still closer t my saxophone seniors.. :) cuiyun, sabbie, yiru, zhanhong. & now sabbie is still the same.. as crappy as ever :D

in the end.. i ended up as an oboist. the best exposure someone can get in band life, is playing the oboe. think ducks quacking :D but it was good experience.

i still remember, for 2003's SYF. choice piece was To Challenge The Heavens And Skies Above - Robert W. Smith. dont know whether it was luck or what, we had our SYF in VCH. A good place, but somehow.. we didn't get th results we want.

practices were torturing.. i remember standing at the other end of the basketball court, playing the solo part over and over and over again.. torturing pls. but practice makes perfect..? nothing's perfect!

came back with an COP... politics started. really, i dont know who to hate, or who to thank.

chong was sacked.. Miss Tan came in. i detested her, gave her my rotten attitude & created hell loads of trouble. but i guess i should really thank her? she was patient in her sacarstic way. patient in teaching US. & for the matter of fact, patient with me. i was never close with her.

but the day she made me cry, the day she made me learn, the day she scolded me changed me from then on..

no more attitude given to her, no more troubles. my oboe was stolen, even during her free time, she kept a look out for my oboe. she put me back in saxophone section. back together with who i was once with. denise & samuel.

joel came in, taught us & drilled us for our SYF. we were lucky i guess, to have a personal tutor. he drilled us, both physically & mentally. as usual, rachel ALWAYS gives attitude. & i guess he got most of my shit attitude & worst. i refused t attend sectionals cause i was rather pisesd with him..

but yes, i should thank him for the improvement & skills i have now. he was the one who taught me all those stuffs..

SYF 2005 :)

Band 108, Unity Secondary School. Silver.

two words. fucking happy.

whatever emotions you want, we had it. crying? screaming? smiling like some stupid fool? hugging whoever we saw? jumping like a frog? we had it all.

our hard work paid off. our constant pumpings we had during fall in, our discipline, our music. our late nights in school, our commitment, our passion.

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our first concert, Resonance 1 @ UCC theatre.



i joined the concert rather last minute, but thanks for the chance :) we chiong props, i didnt really do much.. & of course, practices nonstop :)



i know the feeling of having a production sucessfully put up. so behind those faces i saw last night on stage, i knew deep in their heart they were happy & proud. i guess behind every production/concert held, the people we love are proud of us.

the concert was a success.. :) all of us were happy, i guess that's my first & last concert..

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i guess it's been 6 months since i've been in touch with my beloved sexah thang..



:D

or even, in touch with what's happening in band. ohwell, i've got my informer denise :D more or less updated me with everything that happened all this while.

so i heard, polictics again. politics always kills.

& i guess for this two weeks, i'm gng back to unity. the least i can do as a student of hers, show some respect right? :)

Musicality, Morally.. she taught me alot.

oh well, purpose of this entry? to relive my own memories.

all the best juniors, SYF 2007.. gold? :))

XOXO.