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this camp is a mix of emotions. i guess i'm all, happy + sad + thankful + grateful + loved?

after yesterday's "mini concert", i finally put my finger on why mag&i were so uncomfortable in np's band & that was the reason why we didn't join their band. there wasn't love at all in that band. there wasn't much bonding. it's all, you do your stuffs, i do mine.

i didn't practice anything at all. it was sit & play. everything was in a rush. but everything still went smoothly minus the tears & sobbings occasionally. i think things really change very quickly throughout this two years. but then again, i learnt alot.

pretty glad that i changed :) put down my ego & gain lots of love. at first i didn't believe that M.T was different. M.T gave us love. but after these two years & yesterday. i understood what they meant.

it's so heartbreaking to see her cry, so heartbreaking to know that she's actually leaving us.

i really hated the way she scolded me, the way she was so sacarstic towards me, the way she was always against me. and now, i hate the way i was..

and now, she's still saying "rachel ah.. first day so naughty.. naughty girl ah" & although i was tearing like mad yesterday, i managed to wipe away tears quick & control.. & she went "aiya.. i want to see rachel cry" was already crying M.T, crying in my heart.

sometimes, i wish my parents were like her. being so understanding. oh well. she's a good teacher, i'll always remember her :)

i guess she was really touched when we presented her the songs, making the effort to put on full band U, the cake, the presents, the cards, the dance, the formation. we love you.

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after all that crying, smudging of make up (nurool ah.) & talks (M.T was still giving her talks :)). time for BBQ. :)) we started arnd 11, was super late alr & i was tired. mag & nurool went crazy. really crazy. they started dancing/jumping & shaking their heads like mad fooooooooools. i'm amazed that they still have so much energy in them.

i ate alot alot of hotdogs :D the satay super power! very gooood. denise & i decided t bath at arnd 1. & it was freaking cold, water was super strong. and the stupid cubicle was FLOODED. i had t run t the next cubicle to change. LOL. yes, naked.

denise & i conked out at arnd 130.. & slept till morning. SUPER SHIOK! but it was freeeeezingggg. & mag still on-ed the fan. wtf?!! hahaha. so freaking cold that i stole the blanket :x

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woke up this morning & went around looking for food. samuel & guys were slping in the parade square. super shiok pls! at least their "bed" still got cushion :( we slept on the floor & my muscle's aching abit now. so lousy i know.

for breakfast, i think i ate 1 cup of noodles, 2 pieces of pizza bread. alot alot of chicken wings. LOL & i made the old people drink. condensed milk with water. SO NICE, but freakin sweet! & i was dying from thirst. drank like only one small cup of lime juice during th BBQ & imagine the amount of charred food i ate. surprise surprise, no sore throat :D mag take care of your voice pls.

mag's the YAN-BU (handsome girl) & samuel's the CHIO DAO. (pretty boy). so random :D

but anyhow. went home after breakfast. super tired alr. & they were washing the bball court with the fire hydrant again. i swear the school's OM is ridiculous. we can't use the fire hydrant cause when we pull, the hose will break?!?! then fireman pull.. also will break what! HOW HOW HOW?! can't fight fire alr right. defeats the purpose of a fire hydrant duhhhhh.

& i admire mag's patience. despite all the attitude given & stuff. she still went on. i would have probably exploded and screamed into people's faces. give me shit, i'll give you shit. i guess i've given alot of shit to my juniors. but i hate hearing people complain about them. no choice, scold scold scold. punish punish punish. my 2 sec2 girls, dont know whats wrong with them. jessie especially. almost made her run rounds cause she was sleeping away.

no commitment, no nothing. & really, we don't need to beg people to come back. it's your heart & your own gratitude to come back & put up a nice concert for M.T. is that so difficult? showing your attitude & stuff.. does it make you feel better? -.-

anyway, pictures :D

taken last saturday :)


games time! :)



aftermath of flour games..


people who put in so much for this camp:)


gifts for M.T








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casino royale is crap! super long show & draggy.. made it somewhat boring.. went to tampiness t get xbox games from this buyer..

why do the two young ones get what they want? ryan didnt score very well for his PSLE. then why is he getting games & stuff? what about me?

& why can't my mom stop comparing? she's so ashamed of our results she doesn't even wanna tell aunt about ryan's results. shouldn't be parents be proud of their children no matter what? she's so ashamed of us. there's no theory that parents with good calibre = children who are smart smart smart.

why can't she just encourage us instead of being so ashamed of us?! she's even naggin and naggin that results are no good even though the results are out. for christ's sake, what can we do now?! & she's fuckin stubborn. ryan's intelligence level is higher then mine. that's why she doesn't have to force him to study, unlike me. i'm being forced to study. cane infront of me. it's so unfair. it's proven now that i'm the one who can produce results, although not much of a difference. but she's always showing off that ryan's better.. telling everybody that ryan's better then me. now, i've proven her wrong. even aunt says "now she should know who can study"

SO UNFAIR.

i feel so unloved at home. oh well, it has always been this way. i'm always the one who's stupid, who cant score for her exams.. ryan's the one who's always good at studies even though he gives the family so much shit. & me? always getting shit because of the things ryan do..

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i love my boyf :)

XOXO

PS : i got my allowance :) i'm so happy. no more cash strapped rachel :D